I was up sometime after 12:45am, and could not go back to sleep. So I did what I normally do–talk to Abba about anything and everything.
One of the obvious subjects was family–how especially after the events of the past week, I felt more ostracized than ever, not even getting a phone call to let me be part of birthday celebrations and to see my grandson. I’ve asked the LORD to forgive me countless times, just in case there was something I missed. It has been almost a year that this estrangement has been going on without any improvement, and yes, although I know it is also the work of the unseen evil ones, us humans have a lot to answer for at the Judgment of how we treated one another.
So as I sat there crying, the Spirit said to me, “Do you not realize that the more holy and obedient you have become, the further people have distanced themselves from you? It is a natural occurrence, especially in the light of your improved faith walk.”
😳Holy?? I immediately said, “LORD, I am not that holy of a person, especially 🙄with my mouth–not that it’s bad, but I know you don’t like certain words I say. I do not consider myself to be “holy”, but a wretched sinner who is saved by Yeshua HaMaschiach, my Lord and my King.”
The Spirit said, “The light that has emanated from you since your improved faith walk with Me, has gotten brighter; to a point where now that when your light shines, it makes them look away, because they do not like the brightness that ends up exposing their own sins. Hence their distancing themselves from you, to the point where they would rather be walking around in utter darkness rather than having the Light on them.”
“Also, you remember what was said about this time–about the coldness of men’s hearts and how they would be.”
“Yes–Matthew 24:12–“And because lawlessness will abound, the love of many will grow cold.” “That’s exactly what has happened, and I know not only to myself, but to so many others of my brothers and sisters. It’s just a horrible feeling of loss.”
“What is funny is that you, Daughter, consider others holy (like St. John Vianney, the prophets, other Christians down the centuries, etc.), yet do you not think they struggled in their sins as well? They sure did. I said in My Word, “Be holy as I am holy”–you are doing so by following Me and My Word. That is all I ask.”
“So then, LORD, I hope that our lights shine even brighter, as the world gets darker and darker with this evil. Just like I see more stars, the darker the night becomes.”
As sinful as we all are, the LORD God sees us as He called us to be–a holy people, yet having to discipline ourselves constantly (although it does get a little easier 😊 as time goes on) to make sure we stay on that Path He called us to, because after all, isn’t He worth it? After all He has done for us–even to the point of sacrificing His Son for us–should we not make a concerted effort to live out holy lives for Him, to “let your lights shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father Who is in Heaven”? (Matt. 5:16) He most certainly IS worth it.
I may still feel weird (even by the LORD calling me “holy”) being called “holy”, but I understand that’s just because I still see myself as I was years ago. One of the last things He said to me very early this morning was, “That is the way you WERE; you are no longer that person.”🥰 He sees me for who I am NOW in Christ. A sinner, yes, yet one who recognized the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit as Someone who I could never want to live without. 💖✡📖✝🕊💖
Walking in the Dark with Faith 