365 times in the Bible, it tells us to “DO NOT FEAR”, so why do we still give into it? Why keep allowing the lies of the enemy to beat you down each and every day?
I’ll tell you why, beloved—because either we do not read God’s Word at all, or we do, and do not BELIEVE and receive the benefits from it.
We are to TAKE GOD AT HIS WORD—all of it, not just bits and pieces of it. You insult the Most High God if that is what you are doing. I know—I did it myself years ago, and I did not even realize I was doing it.
If you say you believe in God, in His Son Jesus, and the Holy Spirit—if you say that the Eternal Godhead is part of your life—part is not good enough.
SURRENDER ALL to Him! Seek and pray to have God’s perspective in this life; long for righteousness and truth, and to rid this world of the evil that is taking it on a downward spiral more each day.
Do NOT allow the enemy of our souls to continue to inject FEAR into your lives!! I stopped him from doing that long ago, and I felt like I could BREATHE again!!
I took back what the enemy stole from me—my eternal life, my joy, my confidence and strength in Christ, and knowing that I am the LORD’S, and NO ONE, especially a piece of filth demon or rebellious angel that got himself kicked out of the Throne Room of Heaven, was going to steal, kill or destroy anything from me ever again, in the Name of Jesus!!
LOVE is what conquers the evil, the HATRED, the prejudice, the anger, bitterness, resentment, and unforgiveness in this life!
Rid yourselves of those demonic fiery darts, along with FEAR, and you too, will take back YOUR life that the Lord God meant for you to have, and to live for Him, and to bless you and others with! You will feel like a thousand pounds came off of you, when you leave all that demonic junk at the foot of the Cross, and start to LIVE for Christ, LOVE one another, and DEFEAT the devil by speaking out THE LIVING Rhema WORD in your life!!
NO FEAR—kick it out!! No torments from it anymore—only FREEDOM to live the life WE ALL were meant to live, for the Eternal Godhead, for HIS glory, and for the salvation of souls!
We who profess to be believers in Christ, are to EXPOSE the lies, deceit, the theives, those who pretend to be good, but by their fruits they are truly known, murderers, those who plot and scheme evil things against us, etc.
However, do not take these situations, beloved, into your own hands—hand them over to the Lord God in prayer. Use the Living Rhema (spoken) Word of God to pray against such evil that obviously exists in this world. Prayers are going up to the Lord as how to deal with all this evil—so here once agai, is the ANSWER to those prayers and questions.
By the way, it is not that there is MORE evil these days—it has always been here, since the days of Cain killing Abel(as far as the first humans are concerned); it’s just been hidden from us, for those who perpetrate the evil wanted it kept secret. Now they do not even care anymore—what used to be done secretly in the darkness, is now being done out in the open for all to see.
YOUR job, beloved of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, is to wage spiritual warfare against such evil spirits, with the POWER and AUTHORITY the Lord God gave you to use.
He also will hold ALL of us children accountable for taking up arms in prayer against such evil, and yes, speaking OUT about it as well, so do it in obedience to the Lord as He wills it.
The Lord God Himself said, “Vengeance is Mine; I will repay them in DUE TIME, that their foot may slide: the Day of destruction is at hand, and the time makes haste to come” (Deut. 32:35).
Let Him deal with destroying them altogether, if they choose to remain in their sins. In Matthew 10:28 the Lord Jesus said, “And fear not them which are able to kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: rather fear HIM Who is able to destroy both soul AND body in Hell.”
Remember what the Lord Jesus said, “Pray for them which persecute you…”
Also, “Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven. Blessed are you, when men shall revile you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for My sake. Rejoice, and be exceedingly glad: for great is your reward in Heaven: for so persecuted they the Prophets which were before you” (Matt.5:44, 10-11).
Are we any better than the Prophets of old, or the saints that have gone before us, that have suffered so greatly, and have even been martyred for the Faith? Absolutely not. Then we should expect the same may happen to us, if it is the Lord’s will (see 2Tim. 3:12).
The Holy Spirit said to me some days ago, “It is not how you entered into the world that is important, neither is it how you exit, but WHAT YOU DID with your time while you were HERE.”
He said that to me because the evil spirits once in a while like to remind me that I was a product of an affair—that is how I came into this world; but that did not matter to the Lord—what mattered to HIM was calling and choosing ME unto HIMSELF (Isaiah 43:1), to serve Him.
So do not let those vile demonic beasts make you feel worthless—for GOD has PURPOSED YOU for HIMSELF and HE loved you enough to DIE for you, taking YOUR sins upon HIMSELF (1Cor. 15:3; Gal. 1:4; Rom. 4:25; 1Jn 2:2; 1Peter 2:24), so that you and I, and all others who accept Jesus as Messiah and King, would have a way back to the FATHER God, and most importantly, ETERNAL LIFE with HIM.
✨✨One last very important note:
Remember that it is NOT the person (human spirit) who you are fighting against, but the EVIL SPIRITS behind and within the person (again, look up 2Cor. 10:3-5). THIS is a SPIRITUAL WAR you are seeing play out (manifesting) in the PHYSICAL world.
If you have trouble believing this, I suggest you take it to prayer and ask the Holy Spirit to lead and guide you in further understanding and discernment of it all. My “job” is to INFORM and WARN on all that is going on, and to point out the Biblical truths of what we all see happening; the rest is up to you, beloved, whether or not you choose to believe, or resist the Lord God and His Word.
Sometimes, it is just best to allow the Scriptures to do all the “talking”, especially in these troubled times. We need reminders what God already has said in His Word what was to happen in these Last Days.
These are the verses that were put on my heart this morning, after a long overnight “prayer session”–
“I Jesus have sent mine angel to testify unto you these things in the churches.
Anochi shoresh David—I am the Root and Offspring of David, and the Bright and Morning Star.”—Rev. 22:16
“And Jesus answered them and said, Take heed no man deceive you.”
“and ye shall hear of wars and rumors of wars: see that ye be not trouble: for ALL these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet.”
“All these are the beginning of sorrows.”
“These things I have spoken unto you, that in ME you might have Peace. In the world (system) you shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; Ani nitzachti et ha olam —
I HAVE OVERCOME THE WORLD.”—Jn. 16:33
Praise God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit—the Eternal Godhead—Elohim, for HE has ALREADY redeemed us—all WE have to do, is seek Him, ACCEPT Him as Lord and Savior of our Lives, and ask for forgiveness of our sins. He will instruct you, direct you (Ps. 32:8; Jn. 16:13) and guide you from there.
Are you ready and willing?
Seek Him while He may still be found.—Is. 55:6-7🙏🏼✡️📖✝️
It takes faith to believe in a God Who, for the most part, we do not see physically. I say “for the most part”, because Jesus, Who is the Second Person of the Trinity/God, has not only spent 33 years on this Earth, but also has appeared as “Theophanies” or “Christophanies” in the OT as well. But He hasn’t stopped there. There has been numerous accounts throughout the centuries, of the Lord Jesus appearing to people, and at times, even speaking to them.
I am one of those, when I was very young, although He said nothing to me that night, but only smiled at me for a few minutes, before He walked away. I have heard the Voice of the Lord years later, because I asked to audibly hear it. I read the account of the Prophet Samuel in the OT, and I wanted that experience. I heard the Spirit speak to me many times to my spirit, but this one time, He granted that I heard Him audibly. I have seen my Guardian Angels, and many more, at one time or another.*
I have also encountered the disgusting, vile evil spirits—I’ve seen them, smelled them, heard them, felt them. But then again, I’ve had the “Spiritual Warfare” card dealt to me by the Holy Spirit, to wage warfare against such vile creatures in prayer.
The Lord has shown Himself over and over again, for us to BELIEVE that He IS Who He says He is in His Word. He knows our weak minds and spirits—He knows we need “proof”, and He’s given it.
NOW it’s our time to face that truth—the truth that HE IS the WAY, the TRUTH and the LIFE, and NO MAN comes to the Father but by HIM (Jn 14:6). You may not (need to)have all the experiences that some of us had—your faith may be that much stronger, or what He calls you to do, may not require for you to see and hear as some of us have.
Having faith in the Lord Jesus, and BELIEVING before seeing, is all He is asking of us to do. He IS the one and only “I AM”, and He WILL be coming back, “For God is not a man that He should lie…” (Numbers 23:19)
*You can find out more about my faith walk in my book, “Walking in the Dark with FAITH”–it is available on Amazon in either Kindle or paperback format.
Well it finally happened–I’m a published Author!! I’ve been working on the first of my three-book series, “Walking in the Dark with FAITH” for the past few years; it has taken that long BECAUSE of all the craziness that happened in my life that you’ll read about in these books.
I am just another “nobody” with no money, who is living off of the provisions that the Lord God sends me–that was part of this whole “faith walk” to begin with. I had to surrender all to the Lord , and follow Him wholeheartedly, as He put me back on the Path that He intended for me all along. The finances, the “love of my life”, a place to live, a job, etc., all were to be handed over to the Lord Jesus, and have Him do with (or without!) them in my life, as He so pleased.
When it came to the publishing part of the journey, I did a lot of research, and quickly found out I did not have the funds it was going to take, to have an editor, or a publishing house to pick me up and help me get this done. It was all having to be done on my own, and I am not tech savvy in the least! But at this point, I had no choice–I had to continue to be obedient to the Lord, and get this done and published, so I did the best I could with it.
The cover part was easy–my sister in the Lord Patricia Hoffman, is an artist and sculpter. You can look her up on Facebook, and see her work. She offered to paint a scene that had to do with the very journey I’m on, and when she was finished with it, I absolutely loved it, and that is how I managed to have an awesome cover for my books!
Both the first of the series and the companion devotional can be purchased on Amazon.com in either Kindle or paperback format.
It wasn’t my decision to be so “open” with my story, but the Lord reminded me that:
1)There are several people in the Bible who would have rather not let us know what they did or said in their lives,
2)It helped some of us to learn from their mistakes,
3)He alone is the Judge of all, so being obedient to His instructions to “Write it all down”, is what He asked of me, and I did it. Obedience is KEY, as I have learned.
I pray that these books bless you and help to encourage you on your own faith walk in the dark with the Lord God. There will be a pattern of ongoing tests, trials, tears, but also spiritual growth as the second and third books are written and published. I hope to have the second one finished by the beginning of next year, in between finishing up my last semester of college and getting my Bachelor’s Degree! Finally!
I appreciate it if you would “like” and follow me for more of my blog posts, and to keep up with all that is going on with the book series. I do plan to write other books and devotionals as well, separate from this series, so make sure you subscribe to get my blog in your email.
Thank you all that purchase the books and/or who read my blog post. I look forward to hearing what you think about them. You can email me at JeannetteElizabeth@faithinthedarkhome.com. God bless.
Our eyes and ears must be “tuned” to the Voice that speaks from Heaven. He has sent many a person to inform and warn in the past, and still does to this day; but one day, it will end, and the LORD will shake not only the Earth, but the Heavens. All the inhabitants of the Earth, be they for or against Him, shall know it is Him.
But all that HE has established, shall NOT be shaken or moved.
1 Samuel 2:9 states, “He will KEEP the feet of His saints, and the wicked shall be silent in darkness; for by strength shall no man prevail.”
Psalm 9:19 says, “ARISE, O LORD; let not man prevail: let the heathen be judged in Thy sight.”
Let us also be comforted and encouraged with the words of Jeremiah 1:19, as we see so much evil seemingly prevailing in this world today:
“And they shall fight against thee; but they shall not prevail against thee; for I AM with thee, saith the LORD, to deliver thee.”
Ut in Omnibus Glorificetur Dei
“So that in all things God may be glorified.”–St. Benedict
Look at this first picture—that is basically what I have been told today by the Spirit concerning where He’s got me right now—in a “holding pattern”. He says there’s still much to be done, and He’ll be using me and many others to get His Church reformed and revitalized, yet once more my life in the past two weeks has placed me in this state of “limbo” , and I’ve been left wondering if I did something wrong, or if not, why am I not moving forward? I know He hasn’t abandoned me, but sometimes the silence is so deafening. I wish He would just finally let me know what’s going on with my school—whether or not we’re going to be back there or just online; where I’m going to live next, and when “that man” will ever show up in my life. Plus, what about all these languages He’s thrown at me lately to learn—Biblical Greek, Hebrew and even Aramaic?! It’s bad enough I’m majoring in Latin in school right now for the past two years, but I am just now starting to put the pieces of that puzzle together as to “why” He was so insistent on me learning it. Sitting tight and “being still” is NOT my forté, but it is what is expected of me at the moment. But the Lord also puts me in these places of stillness, to speak to me and inform me of things from time to time. This is one of those times and subjects that has been impressed upon my heart that the Holy Spirit has been grieving about more and more lately.
I have the privilege every so often, to “see” with my spiritual eyes, the Lord Jesus “darkly” (1 Cor. 13:12). I had that “vision”, as some may call it, yesterday morning, as He stated to me once again, “TRUST ME”. I said to Him, “I say it every day, Lord, as I pray certain prayers, and as I see it on a picture of You as a constant reminder.” He is working on uniting the Church Body (every sect of Christianity that believes in the Trinity/Godhead), reminding us that we are to be as ONE. Too many splits have been made in the Church, and unfortunately, there is so much infighting within each sect, it is sad and disturbing to Him.
As far as Scriptural integrity goes, there will be more splits, because there are some that no longer adhere to what the word of God states; more within each church sect will fall away (2 Timothy 4:3-4). On a positive note, just within the past two months, I’ve come in contact with many brothers and sisters in the Catholic Church who said that the leaders in the last several years, have made it their task to make sure the laypeople are learning more Scripture in Church, and told to read and study God’s Word at home, and within home and prayer groups. I’ve been amazed at how much the Holy Spirit has really burst open the Church doors, and rained down His Holy Fire on them.
I’ve prayed for such a revival over 35 years ago while in the Church, but none would hear of it then; they thought me mad for saying I was “born again” as a Catholic. They said it was ok to read my Bible but it wasn’t really impressed upon us to do so. I asked too many questions that they no longer wanted to answer, and felt like they didn’t need to. Even though I was very involved in the Church, I was no longer made welcome back then, so I left. That is not what the Lord wanted to have happen to me, so He reassured me that it would not stay like that. He gave me a choice back then to either stay or leave; I could tell He wanted me to stay and “wait it out”, but the emotional damage that was done to me at the time left me scarred. I walked out and found another part of the Body of Christ to fellowship with, that not only adhered to Scripture, but had the teaching and moving of the Holy Spirit as well.
The Lord kept His promise to me—He said things would be better in time, although still needing some reform in certain areas. But allowing the Third Person of the Trinity to finally be made more known and taught about to His people, so that He could work within them, has been a major positive change I’ve been delighted to discover. To hear some Catholics say they are “born again and Spirit filled” now is remarkable. Their love for Jesus is not only a spoken thing, He is really present in their daily lives. The RCC has greatly improved in that area.
Yet, there are unfortunately some within each sect of the Body of Christ that ignored the Savior’s commandments, and have “turned from the truth” (2 Tim 4:4) altogether. Both Peter and Paul spoke of these things in their letters and we are the generation that is really seeing this come together. We MUST unite the brethren (John 17:21-23; 1 Corinthians 1:10(see pic); 12:12-13; 2 Corinthians 13:11; John 13:35; Philippians 2:2-3; Matthew 18:19-20; 23:8; Ephesians 1:10; 2:14; 4:1-6(see pic), 11-13, 16; Colossians 3:13-14; Psalm 133:1; 1 Peter 3:8; Romans 6:5; 12:4,16; Galatians 3:26,28).
We are not to concentrate on what divides us as far as the differences in how we praise and worship the Lord; He wants us to concentrate on what UNITES us, and going back to Acts and see how the brethren worked together as one back then. Why should it be any different today? To borrow loosely again from Dallas Jenkins(creator of The Chosen Series)’ quote—let the Lord Jesus deal with the feeding of the 5,000 and let US brothers and sisters in Him concentrate on bringing the loaves and fishes, work together as ONE BODY in Christ, and not bicker over the differences. The Lord is not deaf, dumb or blind to what needs to be changed and reformed in the Body; He works first with the individuals themselves, and then spreads it further within the Body. The Holy Spirit’s job IS to “convict the world concerning sin, righteousness and judgment”(John 16:8); He knows exactly who in the Body of Christ is following Him, and who isn’t.
The Holy Spirit is the SAME “still small voice”(1 Kings 19:12) that is in EVERY believer. For those who will humble themselves and “have ears to hear”(Mathew 11:15; Luke 8:8; Revelation 2:7), I say ALL of us need to go to the Father, and ask Him to point us in the direction HE wants us to go (Isaiah 55:6-7). Spend time with Jesus each and every day in prayer, conversation and studying His Word (Matthew 6:6; Romans 10:17; James 4:8). HEED the voice of the Holy Spirit who dwells within us—He is there to lead, guide, instruct, correct, chastise(let’s not forget those last two!!), comfort and encourage us (Psalm 143:10; Isaiah 30:21; Luke 12:11-12; John 14:26; 16:7-11, 13; Acts 1:8; 2:28; Romans 8:6,9,14,26-27; 1 Corinthians 2:13; 6:19; Galatians 5:25(see pic); Ephesians 1:13; 2 Peter 1:19-21). I do not put these verses in here to “show off” how much I know—I put them in here in the hope that you, the reader, will be a “Berean” and look them up for yourselves, and be edified and encouraged by His Word. I pray that we all would continue to hear His “still small voice” speaking to us every single day. Allow the Lord to teach us, transform us (Romans 12:2), no longer following the masses in their thoughts, values, and lack of common sense, and having the apparent void of God in their lives (Exodus 23:2; Eph. 4:17). Allow also for the Lord to “shatter the glass” in your life, if it is needed. Definition of that saying—“a moment of realization that changes your perception on something” (urbandictionary.com).
So let the Lord lead you, of course. My “glass” was shattered about a month ago now, about the RCC, and how much they have positively changed in the last 35 years since I left, because of what happened to me within my own parish. Reform in every church body needs to be done, and still there are items in the RCC that definitely need to be addressed, but again the Lord was letting me know that He was keeping His promise to me—to make sure that those who had “ears to hear” would hear, and follow Him regardless of what man may have put down as “doctrine”. The Spirit will continue to gather His people unto Himself, lovingly correct, unify and strengthen the Body of Christ. All we must do, is listen, heed His voice, adhere to His Word, allow Him to “shatter” any glass within our lives, and unite as ONE BODY in Christ, so that we all can “be in one accord” with Him, to bring others to Christ, and be a true example of LOVE between all the brethren, speaking in Spirit and Truth. Be blessed.
I came across a Bible verse this past week that struck me; it was from Romans 11:22–“Behold therefore the GOODNESS and SEVERITY of GOD…” It’s in the pic so I won’t repeat it here. When I sat there and read it over a couple of times, it really got to me how BLUNT the Lord God is. They are strong but truthful words. The Lord God HAS to “tell it like it is” sometimes, to “get the message across” to His VERY stubborn, stiff-necked Creation. Even I, a Daughter of His, acts like a BRAT sometimes😫, and I find myself more ofthen than not these days, having to apologize🥺 for my attitude and not being grateful enough.
Yea, I can certainly be like that sometimes, especially with all that I’ve been through lately; and the best part is, HE UNDERSTANDS!🥰 But that doesn’t mean I can continue to be a brat. 🙁 I have to acknowledge my faults and weaknesses like any other person, ask for forgiveness, and move forward in my FAITH.
God has to be JUST; He cannot “wink” His eye at our sins, and just brush them off. He cannot praise one person for being all they can be for Him, suffering righteously, sacrificing their lives for Him, and then allow someone who couldn’t care less about knowing Him or His Son, OR His Word, keep on living the way they are without Just Recompense for it. God is HONEST, PURE, HOLY, REVERENT, but He IS “approachable”, believe it or not! Many people don’t think He is, and that is one of the biggest LIES of the enemy! The Lord God has MADE A WAY for us, when there SEEMED to be no way—through JESUS and the BLOOD that HE shed for us on Calvary’s Cross. NOT through Mary, NOT through saints, NOT through “good works”, NOT through serving another god especially—no way! But that doesn’t mean the RCC is not a Christian church; they do have their own traditions, of which I am fully aware, because I was fully engaged in the church, serving there as a Lector, in the Choir, as one of the worship leaders in the Charismatic folk group service, and lastly, a Eucharistic Minister. I did leave for reasons that I will NOT get into now, but I’ve had to learn to forgive and allow the Lord to deal with those who hurt me. They are my brothers and sisters in Christ, nevertheless, and I love them. I am stressing, though, that it is ONLY through Jesus we can go back to the Father (John 10:28-30; 14:6; 1 Cor. 8:6;), and the FREE GIFT of Salvation that is available to ALL that are WILLING to ASK, SEEK, and KNOCK (Matthew 7:7). I mean no disrespect to any of my Catholic brethren in the faith. We’re all still learning to work together as ONE BODY in CHRIST even after all these years.
You who have tried everything else to “satisfy” you in this life—alcohol, drugs, sex, etc., you’ve sinned against God and His commandments. Even if you considered yourself a “good person” being kind and doing good deeds, you still haven’t lived a perfectly sinless life. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US has broken at least ONE of the Ten Commandments, and besides that, we ALL have the innate SIN NATURE that was passed down to us through Adam and Eve (yea, I know🙄, it wasn’t “fair” that WE wuld have to bear that original sin in us as well, but then again, it also wasn’t “fair” that Jesus had to LEAVE HIS THRONE in Heaven, to come down HERE, live among us, and then DIE for us, just so we could have the ONLY WAY back to the Father!). Jesus took upon Himself, OUR SINS, in order to MAKE that way possible.
People think there are “many ways” to God. I’ve been reading the Bible since I was 14, and I haven’t seen anywhere in it that says there are other “roads” leading back to God. It isn’t through scarab beetles, or through several different gods, nor through intelligence, science (oh, by the way, He CREATED SCIENCE and everything else that’s out in the UNIVERSE—just saying😏), “spiritualism”, or any other false religions, cults, or even the apostate Church, can one find TRUE salvation, but in GOD ALONE, by FAITH, and NOT by works(Ephesians 2:8-9).
We’ve all sinned, and come short of the glory of God(Romans 3:23). If God never intervened, we’d all be on our way to Hell and Eternal destruction which was originally meant for Satan and the angels ONLY that also rebelled against the LORD God(Matthew 25:41; 2Peter 3:9; Rev. 20:10). Now that mankind throughout the ages has rejected the Lord and His Son Jesus, “Hell hath enlarged herself” (Isaiah 5:14), taking into her depths, those who were never meant to go there in the first place. BUT God MUST be JUST, or else He wouldn’t be God, now, would He?
Read through verses 15-24 as well in Isaiah 5. Do a word study on Hell, or a Topical study on Heaven, Hell and the Judgment of God. SEEK the Lord out; let Him KNOW that you ARE interested in getting to know Him. Don’t allow FEAR, guilt, regret, unworthiness, etc. make you think you cannot approach the Almighty!
Do NOT allow the enemy of our souls think he is in charge—he is NOT!! He has been DEFEATED! Satan’s destiny is the LAKE OF FIRE—he has NO POWER over any believers, unless WE weaken ourselves, and allow him to get to us.
As far as any of you readers who are not yet a believer in Jesus (Yeshua), it is true that Satan does have “legal ground” in your life; you don’t have the Attorney of All the Ages (1 Timothy 2:5) going to “bat” for you, since you have not ACCEPTED Jesus into your life AS your SAVIOR and LORD. He will IMMEDIATELY be present IN you the SECOND you accept Him. The Holy Spirit will ABIDE (live) in you, and teach, guide, correct, encourage, chastise, comfort, etc. you as you start to LIVE your LIFE out for HIM, and what He has willed and PURPOSED for you. Yes, there IS a PURPOSE and a PLAN for you!
This is where the new believer in Yeshua wants to SEEK His will for their lives. Jesus IS Jewish; the Jewish Feasts in the Bible play a HUGE part in all that is going on in the world, every single day. Do NOT be surprised as you learn more and more about the Lord God and His Son Jesus, how much it IS of Jewish origin. I’ll have to go into that at another time. Remember—the FIRST Christians WERE obviously JEWISH. Let that SINK IN…
And I’ll leave that right there. ACCEPT. BELIEVE. TRUST. HOPE. OBEY. LOVE. READ His Word; SEEK Him out; CALL upon the Name of the Lord (Romans 10:9-10, 13; Acts 2:21) and be SAVED. “For YOU, LORD, are GOOD, and ready to FORGIVE; and plenteous in MERCY unto ALL then that CALL UPON YOU” (Psalm 86:5). Stay well, stay safe, and be blessed, dear ones.
It’s been a while since I’ve had a really decent devotional that hit me between the eyes, and it’s a major “God Wink”. The reasons for that are because I’ve been on this “trip” for a while now, and the Lord expects me to just “go with it”–all that He’s given me so far, and “live” off of that. But as I have told Him many times, His daughter needs to be “fed” and encouraged several times throughout this very l o n g Season of Waiting; I cannot just go on what He told me two years ago, and leave it at that. Yes, it’s a weakness; I admit that. I NEED to know things as they are happening from time to time, but I also have to remember that this is a FAITH WALK, and in a FAITH WALK such as this one, I cannot “see” much of anything, lest it wouldn’t be FAITH now, would it?
So as I was traveling to the school late last week to put in some work hours, I was trying to practice my singing in the car, to get ready for doing worship on Sunday. I said to the Spirit that it would be nice to have devotionals that really “hit the target”; most of them haven’t lately, or would be the same ones I’ve seen before , and wouldn’t give me the “boost” I’ve needed after all that’s happened to me recently.
Well, the Lord DELIVERED one to me that very next morning, and yes, even though I believe it’s one that I’ve seen before, it “just so happened” to be 24 hours AFTER I asked Him, so that DOES count as a “God Wink”!
It was from the Streams in the Desert devotional by L. B. Cowan; it was just the “shot in the arm” that I needed.
So here are the verses that “shine” for me, and gave me the boost of confidence, assurance and encouragement needed–the passages they used came from Mark 11:24: “When you pray, BELIEVE”, and also John 4:50: “Jesus said unto him, ‘Go your way; your son lives.’ And the man BELIEVED the word that Jesus had spoken unto him, and he went his way.”
So no matter how weak or strong our FAITH is, God meets us where we are at. He understands our weaknesses, He realizes how much we go through, for HE is the one who ALLOWS ALL that happens to us. He’s SOVEREIGN, remember? NOTHING gets by Him; all passes through His hands, and He directs it to go as HE wills, and WHEN He wills. The result of this man’s son getting healed by the Lord Jesus, without even being there, AND at the exact TIME the man had asked Jesus to help heal him, was proof enough to that whole household, that the Lord IS God, and all of them became believers. He took that step of FAITH first, and THEN the Lord responded.
When we seek Him out, in both our good times and not just our bad, He WILL respond and help us TO believe in Him. He’s not going to just hand it all to us–FAITH must be utilized; hence the verses in James 2:20-26 speaking about how faith without works is dead. But, one cannot gain wisdom, understanding, growth, knowledge, and spiritual maturity WITHOUT having accepted Jesus as Savior and Lord FIRST in their lives. THAT is the biggest “step of FAITH” one needs to take. BUT, if you don’t take that FIRST STEP, you cannot go further down that road He has paved (in advance!) for you.
Will He help you along the way to further believe, and confirm things in your heart? He sure will! He’s done it over and over again in the Scriptures. He’s done it in the lives of every single true Bible-believing person out there, including ME. WHY would He NOT do it for YOU?? After all, walking in FAITH while having a relationship with the Lord God and His Son Jesus, and KNOWING that you have the Holy Spirit living inside of you, to lead and guide you as you live out your new life in Christ, is as important as having oxygen to breathe. Without it, you would die, so I’d say building up your FAITH walk in Christ is pretty important.
READ and STUDY all these verses. You should be reading God’s Word every day. If you don’t know where to begin, start with one of the Gospels, and also go to one of the books in the Tenach–the Old Testament. Go to Genesis, or at least read a Psalm and a Proverb every day. Get to KNOW your Maker, your Redeemer, your Savior and your King, who is also (and should be!) your Best Friend. It’s better to know Him by those attributes, instead of on That Day–the Day of Judgment, having to get to immediately know Him as your JUDGE. That isn’t the Day you want to finally admit to knowing Him (see Revelation 1:7-8). FAITH works, when you take that FIRST STEP towards HIM.
Well, this Fall semester at school has been a bit more busier than last year, and I had one more class then. I’ve been busy trying to also fit in two small part-time jobs; one brings just enough money in for gas and tolls, while the other job which I started this past month at school, will barely give me enough to pay for both my car bill and insurance. But, I am thankful for these small jobs, because they’re better than nothing. I’m tired of being unemployed.
Things have really been hard on me both financially and emotionally; I tried so hard to “convince” the Lord to allow me to have a full time job when it finally came about, while going to school. I wanted to have the job during the day, while taking classes at night, and yes, that also would have been at full-time status. He turned me down, saying that I cannot walk this WALK of FAITH in the DARK, while earning a decent paycheck, and not being totally dependent on Him for everything. It just doesn’t work that way; at least for right now with what He, the Lord, has me doing. That didn’t sit well with me, but the full time job I managed to acquire on my own with a decent paycheck, “suddenly” had no use for me anymore after a week, and the employers through my job agency decided they didn’t want or need a receptionist; they would go back to doing things the old way—answering the phones themselves. I was totally shocked and thoroughly upset, to say the least.
That put me into such a tailspin—I thought my financial problems were over; I also thought the sudden emergence of an old friend coming back into my life, was finally going to be the beginning stages of that “Season of Waiting” ending. That hope was dashed just as quickly as the job was. All that I tried to do, and the direction I was hoping to head into, was completely turned around in an instant by God. I found myself once again jobless, and my Season of Waiting was now not only being “extended”, but having recent developments confirmed to me, there was going to be an undetermined amount of time that I may have to endure. Besides, it’s more than obvious to me that not only is God truly in control of all these circumstances, but He knows what’s best to happen WHEN it should happen, and HOW it is to come about. But I’m thankful that God IS in sovereign control of it all.
Everyone comes to a point in their life when those trials are seemingly just too much to bear anymore. I hit that point just after all that happened to me a couple of months ago. School kept me busy enough, though. The Lord has had me take on not only a Minor (Holocaust and Genocide Studies), but has now confirmed to my heart that I am to go for the Master’s Degree in that once I completed my Bachelor’s. Why? I have no idea—He’s the one at the helm of my ship; He’s steering it and I’m just following his commands as He gives out the orders. I am thankful that I do know what direction my life is in going in now; I do have complete PEACE about it, yet emotionally, because I am STILL single, the loneliness going through these hard but necessary stages in my life nevertheless is exhausting.
I know it’s better to WAIT on God and also allow Him to direct me on the Path HE wants me to go, and has ordained for me.
The holidays, in these last several years being alone, have been a real struggle to go through. When you have a partner in life, and/or your own family, it’s easy to say to people like myself, “Oh, at least you have your (fill in the blank) to celebrate with; be happy you have them.” But “they” don’t take the place of that special someone who the single person has been waiting for all their adult life.
However, I know my life situation isn’t as bad as some others are. God has given me not only another chance at finding true love, He’s allowed me to go back to school, provided for all my NEEDS so far on this Journey (even though sometimes they look like they aren’t going to be met, and then miraculously, they are!), given me much clearer DIRECTION as to what to pursue in this life according to HIS will, Purpose and Plan for me, AND He’s also given me many loving and caring family and friends to share my life Journey with.
I know that His plans are being “worked out together for the good”. The many “God Winks” that I’ve encountered recently point right towards all that I’ve been waiting for; the Lord just keeps confirming all that He’s told me from the beginning—to WAIT on Him, TRUST in His timing, be grateful for all that I DO have, and don’t concentrate on what I DON’T have. Continue to be PATIENT, and walk the walk of FAITH—yes, in the DARK—and while holding His Hand, He’ll lead me to a more abundant Ephesians 3:20 life and love than I could have ever imagined having without Him. I hope you all have a blessed Thanksgiving.