Walking in the Dark with Faith

🙄Well, you can only put off the inevitable for so long…🫤

Lord knows I’ve been up to my ears these last seven years with my undergrad and grad studies, reading more than a 📚📚few dozen books, journal articles, etc. along the way, researching and writing 📄several papers 📃to boot.

My 😑mind, even during the breaks in between classes, could not seem to relax 😓long enough, and before I knew it, another semester would begin, and the stress to finish each class with a decent grade would start all over again.

During what I initially thought would only be a five month break before school began again in August, I asked the Lord to help me decide whether or not I should continue in my PhD program. I had recently found out through Liberty Academic Advising that EACH of the last three courses (Stage 3) of the program were one whole semester long, AND— there was a very good chance that between the second and third classes, the student would have to REPEAT that entire semester because those are the semesters where they are working on the chapters of their dissertation. They wouldn’t be able to move forward until their mentor said that they were ready. Talk about added stress!!🙄🤦‍♀️ I shuddered at the thought of just how much longer this would take me to complete the whole program. I would be in my mid 60s by the time the program would be completed…

I was 😣already hanging on by a thread mentally and emotionally this last year and a half, especially since having to move back to New Jersey and helping out my family member, giving up my apartment in the area I loved, and my job in the process. But, this is where the Lord assigned me to be. I had to be the obedient servant and soldier, and go where the Captain of the Host sent me.

But, nevertheless, I left the decision up to the Lord God. I surrendered everything to the Lord at the beginning of this FAITH journey in 2016, and since HE was the one who insisted on me returning to college back in September 2018, I felt He should be the One to say when it all should end.

Well, finding out this past month that I reached the maximum amount of my Financial Aid, and suddenly having no way to pay for the rest of my PhD program OR the majority of my bills, sent my stress level rising to new heights (my blood 🩺pressure 🩸numbers were not good, and I never even had blood pressure issues!!). I was not in a good place.😣😞💔

But, the Lord DID answer my question, didn’t He? In His 🙄usual and sudden, abrupt way of doing things,😏the Lord placed me back on this continual journey of mine—walking in the DARK, not knowing how my FINANCIAL situation was going to improve. But that is where the 🙏FAITH part once again, comes in.

I loved going to school; I loved learning, especially about the Bible and the ancient languages on an academic level, in order to take all that I’ve learned and put that knowledge towards my book writing, and also the deliverance ministry counseling that I just began. I continue to pray that people will one day begin to reach out to me with whatever issues they are having, to find out if there is a spiritual “root” to their problems (there usually is!). My desire is to get the person the help they need, whether it’s through my specific skill set or helping them find a biblical counselor, deliverance minister, or even an exorcist, that can further aid them on their healing journey of particular darker spiritual issues.

There’s so much that I’ve learned about the spiritual realm and how the dark forces keep people in bondage in so many ways, but the good part is that there are biblical solutions to those issues, and I pray that I can be part of someone being delivered, set free and healed in the power and authority of the Lord Jesus Christ through this deliverance ministry. WITDWF Deliverance Ministry is a NON-licensed, Biblically -based, Holy Spirit-led counseling service. I cannot “charge” people for my services; I can only accept financial donations.
Please see the attached pics of my brochure to learn more about it.

But in the meantime — although I am honestly a bit reluctant to do this— I will be working on the third and final installment of my book series, “Walking In the Dark With FAITH”, and a couple other devotional book projects as well. The one thing that the 👿enemy keeps beating 😖down on me to this day, is that I’m a self-published author that nobody cares about, and that no one is interested in reading what I’ve written or shared about my life, etc. Those evil 😈spirits are relentless in their attacks!

BUT— then I am reminded by the Holy🕊️ Spirit that it was the ✡️Lord ✝️Himself Who placed me on this path to writing, first with the blog page back in March 2017, and then some months later telling me He wanted me to do this book series on my life. So it IS and always has been, part of His plan and purpose for my life. Besides, how many prophets in the Bible were well off financially, and didn’t have a care in the world about what the Lord was going to assign them to do next??🙄 Exactly. 😏

Like the Lord recently reminded me in the midst of my current financial situation—the book writing was never supposed to be a huge 💲💲💲money maker( though it would be a blessing to my financial situation if people bought my books to just support me in my journey!🙄🙏). YET He knew that if I did this through faith and obedience and all the hard work that comes along with it, the few that do read my books will come to realize that it truly was a Holy Spirit-inspired faith journey that was helping to make me into the spiritually mature servant of God, that the Lord destined for me to be all along. And, HE Himself would send more people my way to discover the book series and the help I would like to provide to them in my deliverance ministry. ☺️❤️In the meantime, as it is written, HE would (as He has always been!) be Jehovah Jireh—my Provider. 🙏❤️✡️📖✝️

So, in the midst of having to read approximately another 16 or so books that are sitting on my desk right now, to assist me in both my writing and deliverance ministry endeavors, I will pick up where I left off a few years ago, and complete the third 📗book in my series.

I am already jotting down notes for what would have been my 📓dissertation book about the Most High God, the Triune Godhead, the Divine Council Worldview, and how humanity was divinely made in the image of God; how we were always meant to be eternally part of His heavenly kingdom and council, through the sacrifice and shed blood on the Cross by our Lord Jesus Christ. It’ll be a while before this one is finished, but I have a feeling that the books I’ve worked on already and all the schooling I had, were just “putting my feet in the water” and preparing me as they say, to work on this massive 📝writing project. 

Finally, I’m leaning towards having a Facebook page primarily for my book writing, spiritual warfare and deliverance ministry. Other authors, writers, and people who are truly interested in learning more about the topics I speak and write on, especially when it comes to spiritual warfare, deliverance, and my faith journey, can find me on that page as well as visit my WITDWF (“Walking in the Dark With FAITH”) blog page which is listed in my bio.

Thank 🥰you all for taking out the time to read all of this; and for those of you who have supported me in the past, especially when purchasing my books, I pray that you will continue to do so in the future, as well as be a regular visitor and subscriber to my blog page. I seriously do need all the support I can get. 🙏❤️✡️📖✝️