I’m a bit down, for the usual reasons. It just hit me about a little while ago. I have felt it more in the last few weeks, but I kind of stuffed it inside of me, and with all that I had going on, I had no time to cry…until now.
As hard as I try to be patient, upbeat and enthusiastic to what prayerfully will come my way, not knowing what the future holds, what had already happened to me in the recent past, sends me into a tailspin again. The enemy is trying to make me more depressed. I am fighting it every day, but sometimes it starts to “leak out” and it finally did this afternoon.
**Switching gears for a moment here, but it blends in nicely**—I actually started a new Professional Page on Facebook, using my full name that one day, I hope to legally have. The page is under Jeannette (my adopted name) Elizabeth (my original birth name) Geist (my biological father’s last name = “spirit”) Marcelli (my adopted maiden name). The Page is something that the Lord wanted me to do, so I did it. I would have rather waited until my first book was actually published, but I got that “holy nudge” from Him a few days ago, so I got it done.
I know it is going to be a very “slow go” with people acknowledging and regularly visiting it, but you know what? That’s ok. It is all in God’s timing. My part, as Charles Stanley would say, is “to OBEY God, and leave the consequences to Him.”
I wanted to share today’s Streams in the Desert devotional in this blog post. It definitely hit home hard; another “God Wink”. The verse that was quoted is Isaiah 30:18– “And therefore will the LORD wait, that He may be gracious unto you…blessed are all they that wait for Him.”
For as long as we are waiting upon God, He’s been waiting longer for us; that is, to get things right, to get to the point in our lives where He CAN bless us with whatever it was we’ve been waiting for. Of course the writer sneaks in “it will give us unspeakable confidence that our waiting cannot be in vain.” That was the answer to the question I posed to Him late last week— “Lord, please remind me that all that I have done so far on this Journey, is not in vain”—while praying to the Lord about my ongoing “Season of Waiting”.
How about this part where the writer states, “…that even after I come and wait upon Him, He does NOT give the help I seek, but waits on longer and longer?”
The Lord obviously has way more patience than any of us would have in a thousand lifetimes. He knows not to “gather the fruit till it is ripe”. Whether we wait with expectancy and enthusiasm, or hold on for what seems like an eternity(but is it really?), not wanting it to be a moment longer, nevertheless, the Lord knows how long it needs be.
I end with the writer’s last thoughts on the subject, which encouraged me further: “Be assured that if God waits longer than you could wish, it is only to make the blessing doubly precious. God waited four thousand years, till the fullness of time, ere He sent His Son. Our times are in His Hands; He will avenge His elect speedily. He will make haste for our help, and not delay one hour too long.” —-Andrew Murray
I’ve been married twice—the first time, it was because I had a child out of wedlock, and we tried to do the “right thing” by getting married about four years into our relationship. It wasn’t the best of times, and even though I loved the fact that I was part of his big family, we were so not meant for each other. But it was hard to break away because I hated to be alone.
But this second marriage—there was I thought, something different and better about it. After all, he was a “Christian” and we had a lot in common, especially both of us being musicians. We met at church through a friend, and even though I was told over and over again by the Spirit to “WAIT, Jeannette, PLEASE wait”, I ignored those pleas. I soon found myself not only thrilled to have someone in my life again, but within TWO WEEKS, he asked me to marry him, and I said YES! And within four months to the day we met, we were married.
As crazy as that sounds, it happened just like that. The pastor of our church tried to have us wait a while, at least six months or so, until we got to know each other better. But we wouldn’t hear of it; we were determined to be with each other, for we felt that we knew what we were doing. Besides, neither one of us wanted to be ALONE anymore. He was by himself for quite some time, and so was I. We figured we’d be alright because we were Christians, and God would be happy with our current choice, rather than who we had in our past.
Husband Number Two wasn’t married before like I was. Personality-wise, he was the complete OPPOSITE of Number One. That was one of the main reasons I was attracted to him. I realize now that when the Holy Spirit told me to “WAIT”, oh my soul—I should have LISTENED!! There were many issues with Husband Number Two that slowly but surely came out over the next several years. We didn’t have any children, and now I am grateful for that. But out of those thirteen years with him, the latter SIX were some of the loneliest times I had out of married life.
More and more it proved to be I made yet another wrong life choice. Four years before the marriage finally ended, he left me, and for the next three months of my life, it was horrific. As bad as our marriage was at that point, I didn’t want it to end. All the arguments and fights, all the nights one of us would be sleeping on the couch (most of the time it was me—he wasn’t giving up the bed), I couldn’t stand the fact that I just may be ALL ALONE AGAIN. That thought haunted me every single day.
We finally got back together after those three months, but the next four years was more of the same—living as roommates, hardly any intimate time, and even though we moved a couple of times hoping the new scenery and areas would help our marriage, the fact of the matter was, WE weren’t meant to be together either.
Once again, God proved Himself right—if He wasn’t the One ordaining the marriage to begin with, it wasn’t going to last. Once again, I failed. Once again, I found myself alone, at least for a short time, and then I fell into my bad habit again of having someone else to fill the “loneliness” gap for another two years, until finally, the Lord put the “brakes” on back in 2016. Through natural and supernatural means (He is the Revealer of secrets—see Daniel 2:27-28, 47)—when He’s ready to tell us those secrets, He “lifts the veil”, and puts the pieces of the puzzle together—at least enough of it for the time, so we can understand what He’s trying to tell us. For me, I was reminded about WHY the Spirit tried to me make me WAIT on Him back in 2000, and NOT be with anyone else. I needed that time for GROWTH in Him, and in myself. I never gave myself a break since I was 20 years old; I always either dated, or was involved in a long term relationship.
But what the Lord wanted me to do almost three years ago, was to me, very frightening. Being ALONE, by myself, having NO man to go out to dinner with, to be intimate with (but intimacy doesn’t just mean jumping into bed with each other, folks!)—after all, I AM a human; I do desire LOVE, and romance. I am a VERY passionate person, and to be without someone all this time has been sometimes excruciating!! But after what the Lord explained to me just WHO that person was—the “clues” He gave to me years ago, that I just ignored, and never gave another thought to—the Lord was TRYING TO HELP me not suffer any more with having the wrong guy in my life, and I basically blew Him off!
“What the HECK was I thinking?!”, I said to Him after He not only finally divulged the “mystery” of what He told me back in 2000, but He said that no matter what, I needed TIME to heal, and to start living the LIFE He had intended me to live. He didn’t just give me the gifts of music and writing to push aside and never use again; He wanted me not just to survive in this world, but to THRIVE, and FLOURISH. But—the “deal” was, it had to be on HIS terms (that means, according to HIS Word), and in HIS timing of it all.
One of the “terms” was, just what I am doing now—telling others of the very costly LIFE mistakes I made, and hoping that by telling others, especially the younger generation, they will HEED my warnings, and not repeat what I’ve done!
Hence the other part of the “terms” He set forth—to write them down not only in my Journal, and a Blog, but a BOOK. Actually, a series of books, so others can learn from my mistakes, and make better decisions based on the Bible, and having a PERSONAL relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ.
As far as the music portion goes, He led me to a church where I am currently on the Worship Team, and the Worship Leader and I are also in another band that sings and plays classic rock and roll, just for fun. That’s a “God Wink” story for another time.
Being married was always HIS plan for my life—choosing who I wanted, ended up being MY plan, not His. I have “reaped” what I’ve sown all those years ago. The loneliness I’ve felt came in waves these past few years on this “Season of Waiting” Journey; sometimes I feel like I’m going to crash and drown. But then the Lord “shows up”, and as if I can feel His arms around me, He lets me know that I am NOT ALONE; that I AM loved; that I AM worthy of “that man”’s love—when it’s TIME for it; that I have so many things to learn yet, and to also share with others, while I’m still a “solitary”. Until that time comes for God to let “him” into my life, I have to learn to appreciate this time, try and enjoy the Journey, and realize that even though I am by myself right now (and for the LONGEST period of my life, I may add!), I am NEVER alone, for He is always here with me.
I’m getting to a certain point in my Journey, where “something” has to happen—a “breakthrough” with either “that man”, and whatever God is doing in his life at this moment, and/or my financial situation (which I don’t see THAT improving anytime soon, especially what just happened with my recent so-called “temp to hire” job—the Lord obviously didn’t want me to “have my cake and eat it too”—I was told I have to WALK the walk of FAITH “in the DARK”, in order to honestly write a book about FAITH; I can’t do BOTH at the same time☹).
It seems I always have some sort of “wall of Jericho” up, that doesn’t allow me to go any further; sometimes I truly believe it is the Lord that allows those “walls” to be there for our LIFE lessons, and growth, and sometimes WE allowed certain “walls” to get in our way of furthering our relationship with Him, and His Purpose for our lives. As far as school goes, I just had to change my concentration from World Languages, which I had 88% completed requirements, to LATIN and Romance Languages, which just put me back at only 50% completed. That was the Lord’s doing, not mine. Whatever the reason is (Isaiah 55:8-9!!) He wants me to study so much Latin, He is not ready to divulge it at this time in my life, WHY He wants me to take it; but here I am, now having to go not only though the Intermediate level, but next year, into the Advanced level until I graduate. Lucky me…🙄😣😕
PLEASE take my advice: When the Lord insists on you doing something that you really don’t want to do, but you KNOW it’s part of His will—-just DO IT!! It’ll save you a bunch of wasted time, effort and heartache!
✝✨Getting back to my current LIFE situation, of course, as the Lord would have it, there “just so happens to be” a devotional today relating to my plight (guess that would account for another “God Wink” then, 😉✡️🌈right?). The Hagee Ministries devotional is titled, “The Impossible Made Possible”, citing Hebrews 11:30 as the verse — “BY FAITH the walls of Jericho fell down after they were encircled for seven days.” It starts off, “The daunting walls of Jericho stood between the children of Israel and the Promised Land. IF NOT FOR GOD, those walls were their mission impossible.” It goes on to say that even though there seems to be “walls of Jericho” that are impossible for us to deal with ALONE, God is there with His almighty POWER, waiting for the RIGHT MOMENT (His impeccable TIMING of it all) to knock them down. He IS the God “who makes ALL things Possible” (Mark 10:27; Matthew 19:26; Luke 1:37); all WE must do, is BELIEVE, and WAIT for those PROMISES to come to pass.
That’s where I am right now; WAITING for just about THREE YEARS, going through a lot of heartache, pain, tests, waiting for “that man” to FINALLY come into my life as the Lord Himself PROMISED and confirmed to me through all those “God Winks”, fighting off the flesh (which is NOT easy to do!!)and temptations in the meantime, keeping my FOCUS on Christ, praying for others, dealing with the Spiritual Warfare when it “pops up” (it’ll be in full force within the month—I can SENSE it already!)—and ALL this, on top of living out my life day to day, going to school FULL TIME, practicing in a band, being part of a church Worship Team as well, staying in touch with family, etc. Oh, and let’s not forget about the writing of this VERY BLOG, and the BOOKS that I am to be working on as well to be published!
I have QUITE a few “Jerichos” that I must deal with on a daily basis. But one thing’s for sure —the Lord is not expecting me to take care of them on my own! He IS here, helping and encouraging me through His Word, the daily devotionals, the perfect sermons I “just so happen” to find in my notifications box that deal with what I’m going through, brothers and sisters in the Lord that pray for me, songs, etc. So as bad and as intimidating as those “walls” in my life look, and as discouraging as they may be from time to time, I KNOW that they WILL all fall and crumble, because my FAITH will NOT quit, my stance is SURE in Christ and the PROMISES He’s made to me—it is written that “He is NOT a man that should lie, nor the son of man that He should repent: Hath He said, and shall He not do it? And Hath He spoken, and shall He not make it good?” (Numbers 23:19)
Here’s the CATCH, though, to being successful in knocking those walls down and KEEPING them down—you must FINISH what you started! There’s no “backpedaling” in God’s Kingdom! I started this “FAITH walk Journey” back in December 2016, and I WILL see it to the END, if it takes me ANOTHER three years to accomplish it!! Whatever the Lord has planned and purposed for my life, and “his” life, we have to just stick with it until He has laid out the VICTORY for us, for it is by Christ ALONE, and no one else, that we can have the victory over ANY wall of Jericho in our lives.
So as I continue to WALK in the DARK with FAITH, why don’t you join me as well? Tell God of your personal “walls of Jericho” that are being too difficult to break down by yourself, and allow HIM to work IN you, the FAITH, HOPE, and STRENGTH needed to get those walls to come crashing down! It’s going to take some time, so I’m telling you upfront to most likely NOT expect it done in a day, a week, a month, or maybe even a year or longer—it all depends on what those “walls” are, and what and WHO else, is involved. But rest assured—if you allow the Lord God to MOVE in your life; if you SURRENDER yourself WHOLLY unto Him, I GUARANTEE by HIS WORD, those walls will be GONE in the Name of Jesus, and I’m betting you too, will forever be changed and transformed into the BEST version of “YOU” that you could ever have been!❤✝.
Giving it all over to God in FAITH requires GUTS—do you have the guts to do it? Do you REALLY want to see VICTORY in your life once and for all?? Are you tired of dealing with the same problems day in and day out?? Then GIVE IT ALL OVER TO JESUS! Day by day, STEP by STEP, as you spend time with the Lord God in daily PRAYER and conversation, you will SEE the results, as long as you learn to BELIEVE, TRUST, LISTEN, and OBEY His Word. It’s got to be ALL HIS way, not “half and half”; no “part-time” Christianity, part-time in the world. If you truly want your LIFE changed for GOOD, then start to SERVE the living GOD who IS GOOD, Holy, Just, Merciful, Gracious, FORGIVING, and WILLING to SET YOU FREE from those WALLS that have imprisoned and restrained you all these years! John 3:36 says (and it is JESUS HIMSELF saying it!), “If the SON sets you free, you WILL be free indeed.”
One last thing—remember, God is a SPIRIT (John 4:24), and if you take Jesus in as YOUR Lord and Savior, the SPIRIT—that is, the HOLY SPIRIT, the THIRD Person of the Godhead, WILL reside WITHIN YOU (see John chapters 14, 15 and 16 to start, for further explanation)—1 Corinthians 3:16 says (the apostle Paul speaking to believers), “Do you not know that YOU are a TEMPLE of GOD, and that the Spirit of God DWELLS in you?” And “…where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is FREEDOM” (see 2 Corinthians 3:17). If that doesn’t give you a PUSH to go ahead and finally get your LIFE that is QUICKLY passing us by, IN ORDER, I don’t know what else I can say.
If you tried everything else to knock those “walls” down in your life, and nothing else has helped, why NOT try the Lord God?? He’s WAITING for you to “Call unto Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know” (Jeremiah 33:3). CRY OUT to the Lord, as it is written to do in Psalms 77:1– “I cried out to God for help; I cried out to God to hear me.” That’s all you need to do, so DO IT, and finally start to SEE the things I see, and HEAR the things I hear from God Almighty. He wants ALL of us to SEEK Him out (see 2 Chronicles 7:14), HUMBLE ourselves before Him, ASK for forgiveness of our sins, and He WILL FORGIVE, and HEAL us, and make us HIS OWN❤✝.
I’ll finally end with this—FAITH is a MAJOR component in walking with God; why should He show you all His wonders, when you really don’t even want to give Him the time of day?? BUT, if you ARE willing to give God an opportunity to totally transform your LIFE, then know from NOW ON, you will no longer walk by the desires of your FLESH—selfishness, pride, lust, stubbornness, self-will, etc. —ALL of that will have to be abandoned! You will be taken on the path of FAITH, TRUST and OBEDIENCE, just like me, and be led by His mighty Hand, in the DARK, on a specific ROAD meant just for YOU. There the Lord will lead and guide you in the WAY you should go (Psalm 32:8), and while you are WALKING in the DARK with Him, your FAITH will slowly but surely GROW.
It’s inevitable, in the Kingdom of God, that one MUST have FAITH in Him, to be able to finally SEE those things which most people do NOT “see” in this world. If you stick with Him, once again, I GUARANTEE by HIS WORD, the BIBLE, you WILL see your walls coming down, and you WILL have VICTORY over ALL your “Jerichos”. Hebrews 11:6 is one of my LIFE verses on this Journey—“And without FAITH it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes TO Him, must BELIEVE that He EXISTS and that He REWARDS those who EARNESTLY seek Him.” Be blessed.
I’ve been on my own for the past four years; Oh, I’ve had plenty of so-called “opportunities” to have a man in my life, but honestly, after being put on this Journey back in December of 2016, and having the Lord show me WHO I should really being waiting for, and having Him confirm it to me several times, I haven’t had any desire to seek anyone else out further.
Have I been lonely? Sure as heck I’ve been! But functioning without a life partner is doable, I learned to realize. It was a weakness in me that the Lord brought to light, and for the past almost three years now, I’ve learn to be comfortable enough to function without having someone to lean on.
That doesn’t mean I don’t want anyone; I sure do! I am WAITING on God as of this very moment still, to deliver “that man” to me, in His own timing. I can live without such a one, but I CHOOSE not to, for I was MADE and DESIGNED by God Himself for a specific man, and that man was made and designed by God, for ME. I also want to be able to share my life, my love, my passions with him; there are so many things I want to experience with that LOVE of my life, who I cannot wait to be with. But for now, until God deems it the “right time”, I live and function alone, without that life partner, learning to become a strong independent woman who can be that better Proverbs 31 woman “that man” needs me to be for him.
The one thing I don’t EVER want to do, is function in this life without God at my side. A man is one thing, but not having the Lord God to lead and guide me, is a train wreck waiting to happen. Actually, it’s already happened in my life, hence the reason why the Lord put me on this Journey, and in a “Season of Waiting” for “that man” of His own choosing. But for me to be the woman of God “that man” needs me to be, the Lord had to “tweak” some things in my life that needed work on, and I’m way better now than I was three years ago, hence all the more reason I realize the importance of not wanting to function without the Hand of God leading and guiding me in this life.
Some of my loved ones and friends choose to function in this life without Christ; but they will never have the Eternal Life that is promised to them unless they give their lives over to Him. They need to SURRENDER their lives—body, soul and spirit—over to the Lord, accept Him as Savior and Lord of their lives, and unless they do all that, He will NOT be able to LIVE inside of them (the Holy Spirit dwells inside each and every believer—see John chapters 14-16). Period.
Mankind functions every single day whether or not they recognize Christ as Savior and Lord, and God as Supreme Being and Almighty God and Father, ONLY because of the COMMON GRACE that God has bestowed upon His Creation since the Beginning of TIME.
Most of the Earth’s population does NOT take advantage of the Saving Grace that Jesus is freely giving to ALL mankind. In fact, some have gone so far as to not only IGNORE God’s ONLY plan for their Salvation, Redemption and Eternal Life, but to insult the Most High God by saying there are OTHER WAYS and means that a human spirit being can achieve “higher consciousness”, or a “god-like” state. Some, like the atheists themselves, say one doesn’t need a supposed spirit being to better their lives—they can do it all by themselves within their own human strength, willpower and intelligence.
God puts each and every single person in situations and circumstances (most of the time, bad ones!), so that they have the OPPORTUNITY to cry out TO Him for Mercy, Grace, Forgiveness, Salvation and Deliverance(Psalm 34:6; 61:2; 77:1; 1 Kings 17:20; 1 Chronicles 5:20).
There’s only ONE PROBLEM with that—the strength, willpower and intelligence that they originally were BORN with, is from the LORD GOD ALMIGHTY Himself, so mankind cannot say that it is only through HIMSELF that he’s attained all he has, for that is FALSE.
There are still others who say that they have somewhat of a spiritual lifestyle, inviting other so-called religions, beliefs, faiths, etc. to enter into their lives, and somehow, as “spiritual” as they may seem, saying that they are OPEN-minded to all things, shut down almost immediately when it comes to God and His Word.
Why is that? Because mankind’s DOMINION and POWER were allowed to be taken from him in the Garden of Eden, by a sly and cunning fallen angel, disguised as a serpent, named Lucifer-turned-Satan. We CAN and DO have that dominion still, because God is sovereign, and Jesus was victorious over Death at the Cross; we just need to take up our AUTHORITY in CHRIST in order to HAVE dominion over Satan! Lucifer was kicked out of Heaven (specifically, the Third Heaven) (“I saw Satan fall as lightning”—Luke 10:18) when he was foolish enough to think and say that HE could be like the Most High, and somehow take over the Third Heaven where God Himself resides (Isaiah 14:12). BUT, I have to admit that Satan used all his gifts, talents, skills and abilities that the Lord God Almighty originally gave him when He created Lucifer as a Cherub, and made him “worship leader” of Heaven (see also Ezekiel 28:13-17). Lucifer was obviously so full of himself, that he didn’t bother to give God the glory thanks He deserved for giving Lucifer all those gift, talents, etc. to begin with. Lucifer LIED to himself, thinking and saying that what he had, he attained BY himself, FOR himself. WRONG ANSWER!! Hence the quick expulsion of him out of Heaven, and now that humankind was already in the mix of what the Lord’s plans were, God has used even Satan himself and those 1/3 that were convinced of his lies and promises of taking over Heaven, all these millennia, to PROVE to mankind, that the ONLY ONE who has POWER , DOMINION and the PROMISE of ETERNAL LIFE, and the true GIVER of such, is God HIMSELF, through His Son Jesus Christ, having the Holy Spirit living IN and working THROUGH His true believers, and NO ONE ELSE can share HIS Glory and Honor due His Name (Isaiah 42:8; Psalm8:1; Isaiah 43:7; John 17:4; John 14:6; 1 John 5:13; Rev. 4:11). But Philippians 2:9-11 spells it out for us, that ALL will bow their knees, and confess with their tongues, whether they be in Heaven or Hell, that Jesus IS LORD to the GLORY of God the Father! Amen!
There are always going to be humans, until the Lord calls it “quits” down here, that will just NEVER believe Him, His Word, or in His ways. He knows that; He created us. He knows how fallible we are, such stubborn, rebellious creatures, and needing of that spiritual REBIRTH and CONNECTION to the SPIRIT that was CUT OFF due to the SIN of DISOBEDIENCE in the Garden of Eden by Adam and Eve. Satan DOESN’T want us to have that one-on-one Spiritual “re-connection” with the Lord God Almighty, for IF we DO, then we will NO LONGER fall for his lies, schemes, and deceitfulness! Keep as many “in the dark” about their spiritual connection to the Lord God Almighty—even convince some that there IS no such thing as a “spirit body” (1 Thessalonians 5:23; Numbers 16:22; Genesis 1:26-27, which clearly states God created us LIKE the Godhead!; Matthew 10:28; James 2:26; 1 Corinthians 5:5, 15:44-47), but as you see there are numerous verses in the Bible, and those listed are just a few, that speak of God making man IN HIS IMAGE, which is a SPIRIT, a SOUL (the mind, will and intellect of a person), and lastly, a BODY. But most of mankind has ignored the first two, concentrating only on the last part—the BODY, and has tried to be glorified through that ONE aspect of himself.
As it has been stated before, God is NOT going to share His glory with anyone, nor allow His creation to raise itself above Him—it cannot and WILL not happen. Either we SURRENDER ourselves to Him, realizing that we in fact DO need a SAVIOR and Redeemer in this life, to lead and guide us, ensuring us along the way that we ARE His, and He works in, with, for, and THROUGH us, because of the LOVE that Christ showed for us upon the Cross, taking our place, and putting upon Himself ALL the SINS of mankind, OR we can in our own stubbornness and rebellious nature, remain steadfast in our sins, going through LIFE here without Him, doing our own thing, believing what WE want instead of what He has shown us, and remaining DEAD in the spirit until Judgment at the White Throne Judgment Seat, which happens in Revelation 20.
It’s OUR choice—Eternal LIFE with the Lord Jesus Christ, recognizing our FULL POTENTIAL here and allowing God to work out His Plans and Purposes in this LIFE (Jeremiah 29:11) that He has Ordained and made for us BEFORE the foundations of this world (Ephesians 1:4; Psalm 90:2, 2 Timothy 1:9), and so we HAVE this “HOPE of Eternal LIFE, which God, Who does NOT lie, PROMISED before the beginning of TIME” (Titus 1:2).
OR, we can remain in our sinful state, doing WHAT we want, WHEN we want to, HOW we want to, with WHOM we want to, and meet our Judge (Psalm 9:8; 50:4; 75:7; 96:13; Isaiah 3:13; 33:12; 66:16; Daniel 7:9-10; Ezekiel 33:20; Revelation 6:15-17; Hebrews 10:30–the Lord WILL judge His people; 1 Peter 4:17–the Lord judges His OWN, and righteously, so it’s OBVIOUS that those who do NOT follow Him will ALSO be righteously Judged!; 2 Peter 2:4–even the ANGELS will be judged!; Jeremiah 17:10).
It’s up to each and every single human SPIRIT being that has set foot upon this Earth, to CHOOSE this day, who we will serve—ourselves, a false god, or the One True Living God. One way or another, on THAT DAY, we ALL will meet Him. As Amos 4:12 says, “Prepare to meet thy GOD.”
First off, I want to apologize for not being on here and blogging for the past two weeks—School was finishing up with finals, concert recitals, etc., and I also had to MOVE in the middle of all of that! I’ve been non-stop, even having to play out in a gig this past Friday at the last minute, and just in the past day or two, have finally slowed down enough to situate myself in my new living space, and just take a BREATH.
As far as my grades go, it looks like I’ll be getting a 4.0 for the first time in my college career! I’ve gotten close in years prior, but as hard as it’s been on many of my fellow classmates and I this semester, it’s actually paying off! I’m so stoked to be able to honor God with my excellent grades!
Now, about that title—I borrowed part of it from a song that I recently heard on the radio, which the Lord used not just once in the past two weeks, but TWICE😳✡️🌈, as a “God Wink” for me! I was reading one of my devotionals a little over a week ago, the Streams in the Desert, and remembered that was THE one that the Spirit lead me to taking the title of what will be my book series, and also, how this blog’s name came from.
The title of that devotional on May 1st was, “God Cannot Lie”. The Scripture verse was, “God that cannot lie, promised”, taken from Titus 1:2. As you read the devotional, it speaks of how FAITH is being exercised by believing that what God said would come to pass, is TRUE, and that it WILL, according to His timing and purpose of it all. The following quote that the author of the devotional uses, is where the Lord inspired me to get my title from—“FAITH, walking in the DARK with God, only prays Him to clasp its hand more closely.”—Phillips Brooks
I reflected back on these past two years, as I re-read that quote over and over again. It made me remember and realize that God has been moving mightily in my life every single day, and anywhere from one to several times a week, He’ll give me what has been coined by the Spirit to me, “supportive evidence” to prove to me, I’m on the right track, and to continue to WAIT on Him to bring me to the FRUITION of His intended Destiny for my life.
I absolutely LOVE the quote from the movie, “A League of Their Own”, when the announcer said at the end of the World Series game, “I’ve seen enough to know I’ve seen too much!” That’s how I feel by now—there is NO WAY after two plus years on this FAITH Journey, that I can deny God’s Hand in all of this—EVEN when it’s a song that “just so happens” to come on the radio, when I’ve been suddenly “led” to turn it on, and there it is!! NO ONE can tell me that God doesn’t move and do miracles in this day and age!! I’ll challenge ANYONE OUT THERE, to tell me different!! I’m talking to you BELIEVERS of God, NOT any unbeliever. Oh, I’d tell you the same, unbeliever, that God DOES do miracles today—2019, as He did thousands of years ago.
So those who name the name of Christ, and believe in the Father, Son and Holy Ghost (Spirit)—when God says that He cannot LIE, do you TRUST Him? Do you BELIEVE Him? He wouldn’t be God if He lied! How could anyone TRUST Him then? WHY would anyone trust Him?
After leaving the concert recital, not having anyone there for me, I felt a little down. Immediately I was wishing that the Lord would bring “that man” into my life, and let me get on living as a married person, instead of going through this desert “season” of dryness, and lovelessness. I don’t have my parents around anymore, who would always come to all my performances when I was singing, or in a play. I started to weep, and suddenly, the Spirit had me put on the radio, which I wasn’t really in the mood to do☹️😒, but wanting to be OBEDIENT and trusting, I went ahead. The radio station was still in their week of a “sharathon” mode, and to actually listen to a song at any given time, was a miracle in itself at that point🙄. Well, as God would have it✡️🌈, not only was there a song on the radio at the time, but it was Danny Gokey’s song, “Haven’t Seen it Yet”. It was about three-quarters of the way done, but with God’s perfect SOVEREIGN TIMING 😳 I heard from the bridge of the song, onward! Here are some of the lyrics written out, and then the rest in the pic: “He is moving with a LOVE so deep/Hallelujah for the victory/Good things are coming even when we can’t SEE/We can’t see it yet, but we BELIEVE that” (2x)
Let me tell you something, Naysayers—even people like Pilate and Judas Iscariot would have noticed God’s work in my life by now, if you don’t! I don’t say that to be rude or cruel, but SOMETHING has got to wake you all UP to SEE that God DOES work TODAY in people’s lives (“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.”-Hebrews 13:8), but you have to “Call upon the LORD” (Ps.4:1; 17:6-9; 18:3; 50:15; Isa. 65:24; Jer. 33:3), and be serious and consistent in your prayers about it, in order to start SEEING the results! My “man” isn’t in my life—YET; I don’t have a decent job, or a place to call my own—YET! BUT GOD—do you see that??—But GOD “will (and HAS!) supply ALL my NEEDS, according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus” (Phil. 4:19)! He’s been taking care of me every STEP of the way so far on this Journey! I’d be a FOOL to stop believing now! The “God Winks” that He has provided, has been astounding, and encouraging enough to keep me going, letting me know full well that “He that started a good work in you, will carry it on to completion(Phil. 1:6).”
EVERY TIME I stepped out in FAITH, the Lord God has responded in kind—giving me what He did with that song on the radio, for instance. I’m amazed more and more, especially with the EXACT TIMING of it all! Even where the song lyrics were at the time I was led to turn the radio on, makes it even more astounding! It’s as if God was using the song to “answer” the questions I was crying out to Him in those moments. ❤️✝️🙏🏼 It encouraged me so much. My situation hasn’t changed as yet, but He brought me once again to a place of PEACE and ASSURANCE that He IS “working all things together for good” (Rom. 8:28). God IS up to something good, and as always, I am willing to WAIT on Him to do all that He needs to do, in order to make it ALL “come to pass”(Ps. 37:5).
Taking God at His word is something you the reader, are going to hear me talk about over and over again, as well as OBEDIENCE to Him, and TRUSTING in His word. I wouldn’t have seen all the “God Winks” I’ve seen so far, and experienced His wonder working power in my life, if I haven’t been BELIEVING what His word says IS true!
The man I am waiting for, IS worth waiting for, because the Lord God has HIS Hand in it; I am working hard in school, to not only do well for myself and my future husband and family, but also because it brings God honor and glory. The more I hang onto God’s Word and have FAITH in it, even while still in the DARK about what God is ultimately going to do, WILL lead me finally to that Destination that God had for “him” and I all along, and for whatever ministry or ministries He puts us in.
Waiting patiently is just one of the STEPS I’ve had to do on this Journey. It hasn’t been easy, but the Lord has been faithful to show me encouraging SIGNS along the way, to make me realize that He IS “perfecting that which concerns me” (Ps. 138:8).” May you allow Him to do the same in your life. Be Blessed.