When the Suffering of Jesus as the Passover Lamb took on a Whole New Level For Me, and So Many Others

I’m definitely “feeling” it this week; it is Holy Week, and the Passover is also upon us. I can’t wait for that, because I love to celebrate Passover just as much as Easter. It’s because of the Feast of the Unleavened Bread and Passover, that we get to celebrate Easter, or Resurrection Sunday, as it’s also been know as in recent years.

It’s an intense spiritual week for sure—the last week of Christ was chock full of energy, excitement, and emotion. What started out on what we believers call “Palm Sunday”—the day that Jesus rode in on a donkey (Matthew 21:1-7), which was prophetic Scripture being fulfilled right there (see Zechariah 9:9)—the people shouting, “Hosanna in the highest” (Matt. 21:8-11), ended with Jesus being arrested (Matt. 26:47-56), beaten to an unrecognizable figure (Luke 23:13-17), and nailed to a Cross on what is known as Good Friday, dying for ALL of mankind’s sins (Luke 23:33-47).

I saw “The Passion of the Christ”, when it came out years ago. I’ll never forget that day in the theatre—all the people that were in there with their usual drinks and popcorn and such (I knew not to get any that day—would have choked on it while crying), talking quietly prior to the movie started, were NOT the same people afterwards. I KNEW it was going to be intense; I knew that the previous movies about Jesus never really described in depth, what He truly went through. It’s one thing to read a verse or two about Pilate ordering Jesus to be flogged (John 19:1) or “beaten” as some translations have it, but it’s a whole other experience when you see it play out on a huge screen, and how it was done.

The Flagellum (Latin name for it) or “Cat of Nine Tails”, as it is commonly called (see pic), was used for the scourging of any person that was ordered to receive such punishment. Note: the Romans did not use it on their own citizens (see Acts 22:25); it was reserved for criminals, slaves and the like. It was designed in such a way, that just a couple of whips from the Flagellum, would start to rip the flesh off the person. It was usually about three feet long, with pieces of bone, glass, metal, lead, etc. attached to it, so that every whip from it would “catch” on to the person’s skin, and not only leave stripes and welts, it would tear away the skin bit by bit. The person would be tied to a scourging pole, and it wasn’t supposed to go any more than forty lashes; most people would have died from the scourging alone if they received as many lashes.

When all of us watching that scene of Jesus being beaten to a pulp, you could have heard a pin drop in that place. I remember looking around at the viewer’s faces; they were utterly horrified at what they just saw. No longer was it just a couple of verses in the Bible they read once or twice (if that), or something they heard their pastor or priest mention. Now it became that much more real to them. I started to hear gasps and sobs from them.

But Jesus endured all of it, and managed to walk to Golgotha (Matt. 27:33), with Simon of Cirene helping Him to carry His cross (Matt. 27:32).

Clearly, Mel Gibson got his point across, that Jesus truly suffered much more than other films depicted, and Mel brought to life what it says in Isaiah 53:1-10. I will write that entire passage here from the Christian Standard Bible (CSB) version:

“Who has believed what we have heard? And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed? He grew up before him like a young plant and like a root (the “root of Jesse”—see Isaiah 11:10, Romans 15:12) out of dry ground. He didn’t have an impressive form or majesty that we should look upon him, no appearance that we should desire him. He was despised and rejected by men, a man of suffering who knew what sickness was. He was like someone people turned away from; he was despised, and WE DIDN’T VALUE HIM (my emphasis, any words you see in CAPS [except for the word LORD] until the end of the quote). Yet he himself bore OUR sicknesses, and he carried OUR pains; but we in turn regarded him stricken, struck down by God, and afflicted. But he was PIERCED because of OUR rebellion, crushed because of OUR iniquities; punishment for OUR peace was on him, and we are HEALED by his wounds. We all went astray like sheep; we ALL have turned to our OWN way; and the LORD has punished HIM for the iniquity of us ALL. He was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did NOT open his mouth. Like a lamb to the slaughter and like a sheep silent before her shearers, he did not open his mouth (Matt. 26:63; Mark 14:53-65).

He was taken away because of oppression and judgment; and who considered his fate? For he was CUT OFF (see what the prophet Daniel said about Messiah being “cut off” after 69 weeks—Daniel 9:24-27, esp. vs. 26) from the land of the living; he was STRUCK (flogged, crucified) because of my people’s rebellion. He was assigned a grave with the wicked (two thieves that were crucified and died alongside Him—see Matt. 27:38), but he was with a rich man at his death (see what Matt. 27:57, Mark 15:43-46, John 19:38-42, Luke 23:50-53 said about Joseph of Arimathea), because he had done no violence and had not spoken deceitfully (see what Pilate (and Pilate’s wife!) said about Him in Matt. 27:2, 9, 24; Mark 15:2; John 18:37; Acts 13:28). YET the LORD was pleased to crush him severely. When you make a guilt offering, he will SEE his SEED, he will prolong his days, and by HIS HAND, the LORD’S pleasure will be ACCOMPLISHED (see Numbers 11:23; 23:19; Ezekiel 12:25; Isaiah 14:24; Psalm 115:3; 135:6).”

It pleased God to put Jesus through all that suffering, pain and excruciating death. Why? All out of LOVE for His Creation. It was NOT just for those who follow Him, and call Him Savior and Lord; but also for those who really couldn’t care less about Him, or what He’s done. The very BREATH that comes out of our lungs belongs to the LORD God; He could “cut off” that ANY second He chooses. He could have left us for eternal Death and damnation, but He CHOSE to sacrifice His only Begotten, NOT CREATED, Son, Jesus, the Second Person in the Triune Godhead, to make restitution for all of mankind. As it is written, “Without the shedding of blood, there is no remission (of sins) (Hebrews 9:22).”

There was and IS NO OTHER way back to the Father God, except through the death of Jesus on the Cross for the sins of mankind. BUT, God didn’t stop there; there was also that THIRD DAY that Jesus “just so happened” 🙄😉to mention about as well😏…❤️✝️🌈

I pray that you have a Blessed Passover, and Easter! Remember to honor God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ, in all that you say and do. LIVE out your LOVE for Him daily, by professing His Name to others.

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God’s Word is So True, Alive and Active, the Enemy of Our Souls Doesn’t Want Us to Read It!

I know I usually write about my Journey and how God is leading me step by step, day by day in this current “Season of Waiting” that I’m in. But because of something that happened to me a little over a day ago pertaining to God and the validity of His Word, I must make mention of it here. It’s burning up inside of me, and usually when that sort of thing happens, I know it needs to be “said” to the masses.

First off, I’m going to say that God doesn’t necessarily need to me to “fight” His battles, when it comes to letting people know about the validity of His word, and how it’s been preserved over these thousands of years. His Word is exalted above even His Name (Psalm 138:2). But, I AM His daughter, one of many, and since my very eternal LIFE depends on His Word being TRUE and learning (some of it the hard way!) to adhere to the Bible, by reading it, studying it, and LIVING it out, I DO stand up for Him and His Word, when others try to either trash it, make fun of it, misunderstand it, twist it, or worse yet, try to put their belief’s traditions, rules, regulations, etc., ABOVE what God’s Word says(see Matthew 15:3;Mark 7:8-9, 13). The apostle Peter and the others with him said in Acts 5:29, that “we ought to obey God rather than men.” They knew full well not to take man’s traditions and put them above God and His Word.

I myself came out of a church that did exactly that; I’m not saying traditions are bad, but when they start to ursurp God and His Word, then that places that “faith” in a very dangerous position. They’re heading down the road to being an apostate, or worse yet, a false religion or cult. That is NOT where one wants to find one’s self, at the end of their days, realizing that they “did it all wrong” by following in the footsteps of Adam and Eve, who believed the lie from Satan, and allowed DOUBT of God’s word to creep in, and basically destroy all hopes of mankind having eternal communion with God, until JESUS (thank You, Lord!) stepped in (see Gen. 3:15, first Messianic prophecy), and took our place at the Cross!❤️✝️ If we call Jesus Lord and Savior of our lives, and read, study and live by the Bible, we shouldn’t let the enemy of our souls deceive us, nor the precious souls that are still lost in this world, letting them believe the lies of Satan, thinking that God and His Word are not true, and cannot be trusted. Let me explain further by going a little more into my Journey that I’ve been writing about in my blog:

During those 30 years on my “crooked path”, the Lord was still with me; I was called and chosen by Him, to “work” for Him, and use whatever gifts, talents, skills, and abilities He’s given me, for the betterment of the Kingdom, and for His glory and honor. Once I finally was taken “off the shelf”, back in December, 2016 and decided to wholeheartedly follow Him, giving Him total Reign over everything in my life, including my relationships (which was a HUGE thing for me to let go of!), THEN, and only then, did I finally <<click>> into His “Wheel”, and became a cog that has been “fitting” smoothly, going where He goes, doing whatever He wants me to do, and THAT is the main reason why I ‘ve seen and experienced so many “God Winks”—walking with FAITH in the DARK, holding His Hand, produces those “God Winks”—it’s one of God’s ways of “speaking” to me (and other believers!), letting me know that He sees and hears all that I and all other believers are doing and going through, and from time to time, sends us such “notes” of encouragment. They’ve answered many a question I’ve asked, calmed me down when I was fretting, quieted my spirit when I was afraid or starting to think He wasn’t listening, AND even strengthened me much during this whole Journey, giving me the stamina and determination to continue onward. Some of these “God Winks” are the Scriptures that I’ve seen in my daily devotionals that have “fit” exactly to the “T” hundreds of times now over the past two years, moving me forward in my FAITH walk, letting me know over and over again, just how ALIVE and active His Word is in my life, and it’s just one of the ways how God “speaks” to each one of His children that are listening to Him. I know that He’ll continue to reveal Himself more to me as the time goes on, and have the pieces of this “Journey” puzzle fit together, until this “Season of Waiting” that I’ve been in, comes to an end. Until then, as long as I continue to walk according to His Will and purpose for my life, whatever He is “weaving” for me and everyone else involved in and around my life, I WILL continue to see and experience these “God Winks”.

Trials, tribulation, and temptation are also part of the Journey; along with that, is the Spiritual Warfare portion—not my favorite part of this whole thing, that’s for sure🙄😒. I wish THAT could be left out. But, Satan hasn’t stopped stealing, killing, and destroying (John 10:10), and won’t, until the Lord Jesus throws him into the Pit for 1,000 years (Rev. 20:3), and then finally, into the Lake of Fire (Rev. 20:10). All those who never came to the Lord, and who were judged at the White Throne Judgment (Rev. 20:11), according to their WORKS (Rev. 20:12-13), will also meet their end there. Until the DAY that I am HOME with the Lord, I have to endure such Warfare; I am not the only one—EVERY single person that names the Name of Christ, if they are truly serving Him, comes under such satanic attacks. But, we have to recognize what is a spiritual attack, and not allow ourselves to be deceived into thinking it’s just people that are the enemy.

Human spirits, as stiffnecked and stubborn as they are🙄, are the ONLY ones that can be redeemed, hence the reason why the enemy of our Souls keeps making the majority of the Earth’s population think that HUMANS are the problem, their RELIGIONS and BELIEFS are the problem, their POLITICAL VIEWS are the problem, etc., when all along it’s HIM—Satan, that’s being ALLOWED to make all the confusion and confrontations that occur. Hatred, Fear, Pride, Arrogance, Dread, belief in False gods, etc., end up producing Sickness, Disease, and Death, in most of the world’s population, and it’s all because we’re sitting here, blaming each other, when HE’S been the instigator the whole time. He’s not called “the accuser of the brethren” (Rev. 20:10) for nothing. But he doesn’t just go after the believers. Those who couldn’t care less about God, the Bible, and believe nothing about the spiritual realm or the afterlife are also widely targeted by Satan.

Humans that don’t believe in the spiritual realm, are just the type of people Satan and his demons are counting on, so that he can continue to confuse and confound mankind to NOT believe in the Lord God Almighty, Who “just so happened” to be his BOSS (Lucifer was THE Worship Leader in Heaven—he was the one that was responsible for the Music—God gave him that job, and as soon as he got kicked out of Heaven, he PERVERTED all the gifts given to him, and used them all for EVIL henceforth). HE is the main reason why we have so many different religions, false gods, even “Christian” sects!! Anything and everything to point in the opposite direction of the Lord God Almighty, is what Satan has done, and we as blind men, have followed him, and some will continue, right into the Lake of Fire.

“If you can’t beat them, join them”, was a popular saying as I grew up. Well, it makes sense when it comes to what Satan and his cohorts, the demons (some of them fallen angels) have come up with, especially all the false religions, but even better still, are those “Christian” sects that are SO CLOSE to the real Biblical born-again New Life in Christ, that with just a “tweak” here and a “switch” there, some people have fallen for what SEEMS like Biblical Christianity, but in reality, they are almost as lost as the unsaved. HENCE the reason why every believer in Christ NEEDS to know the Bible, backwards and forwards! Every non-believer should NOT just “dismiss” it as hogwash, or some mystical “mumbo-jumbo”, without checking it out for themselves! Put it to the test, people! SEEK God out (Deut. 4:29; Psalm 14:2; Matt. 6:33)! Sincerely CALL out to Him, and He WILL answer you (Jer. 33:3; Psalm 18:6; 107:27-28; Psalm 34:17; Romans 10:9-13)! The LAST thing that Satan wants a human spirit to do, is to call on the VERY ONE that he used to praise and worship himself!!

Scripture says we have to be “wise as serpents and harmless as doves” (Matt. 10:16, NKJV). 1 Peter 5:8 tells us to “be sober, be vigilant, because your advesary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.” Jesus told us flat out, that HE was the ONLY way, the TRUTH and the LIFE (John 14:6), and that NO man, NO religion, NO cult, NO “ism” or any other way is going to lead mankind back to the Father, but by JESUS and HIM alone. I’m going to use caps here, folks, because it’s THAT important—we’re talking your ETERNAL SOULS, here: IF IT DOESN’T POINT BACK TO JESUS BEING THE LORD AND SAVIOR OF YOUR LIFE; IF HE ISN’T BEING CALLED “THE SECOND PERSON OF THE GODHEAD” (Father, Son, and Holy Spirit); IF HE ISN’T BEING RECOGNIZED AS “THE IMAGE OF THE INVISIBLE GOD” (Colossians 1:15), and that after you TESTED THE SPIRITS (1 John 4:1-3), to see whether or not that particular “faith” you want to get into, is the REAL THING, and they tell you in one way or another, that Jesus is a good or great man, or Prophet, or even goes as far as to say that He is the Son of God, but a LESSER god😳🚩, or that the god they serve never HAD a Son, or spoke about Him, or TO Him (Genesis 1:26; 11:7; Psalm 2:7, 12; Mark 1:11; Luke 3:22)—or that He was only a spirit creature, and was never really fully human AND divine at the same time (God in human form = Immanuel = “God with us”) as it is written in Isaiah 7:14; Matt. 1:23; Zeph. 3:17; Matthew 28:20; John 1:14; 14:9,16-17, THEN you may be getting into something that has nothing to do with the real God of the Bible, or His Son, Jesus Christ, or the Holy Spirit, Who is the Comforter, Counselor, and Who dwells in each and every believer (see John chap. 14-16 about the Holy Spirit’s role in our lives!)!

Satan will do whatever it takes, to make God look like the liar, and not him! Messing around with God’s Word is a very serious offense. The Lord God had it written in Deut. 4:2, Proverbs 30:5-6, and Revelation 22:18-19, commanding us to not add to, nor delete from His Word. He has been able to protect His Sovereign Word from every enemy that has tried to eradicate it one way or another. He will NEVER let that happen; it is written in Isaiah 40:8, “The grass withers; the flower fades, but the Word of our God stands FOREVER.” Matthew 24:35 also states (Jesus Himself speaking), “Heaven and Earth may pass away, but My words will not pass away.”(ESV) God has protected His word throughout the thousands of years; He wants us to get to KNOW HIM and His Son, Jesus, by reading, studying, PRAYING, calling out to Him, and living out His Word in our daily lives, just as I am doing in my FAITH walk. We need to learn to TRUST GOD more than man; Numbers 23:19 says, “God is not a man that He should lie, nor the son of man that He should repent: has He said, and shall He not do it? Or has He spoken, and shall He not make it good?” (AKVJ) Satan has done an “excellent” job unfortunately, duping most of us at one point or another (even believers!), to NOT take God’s word so seriously. That’s a HUGE “nail in the coffin” for him if one not only starts to BELIEVE in the Lord Jesus Christ, but then TAKES GOD AT HIS WORD—that kills Satan “on the spot”!

Trusting IN God, OBEYING Him, learning to lean on Him, humbling ourselves before Him, meditating on His Word, getting to know Him better, and seeing supernatural Holy Spirit-inspired “God Winks”, or whatever you the reader may want to call them when God answers your prayers—all these things I have been doing faithfully for the past two plus years, and NOT ONCE has He failed me!! NOT ONCE have I gone hungry, or had any other needs not met. Once a person (like myself) hands their ENTIRE LIVES over to the Lord God, and starts to serve HIM, it can only BE a “win-win” situation! Oh, the trials, tribulations temptations, and occasional bouts of Spiritual Warfare will be there—it goes with the “territory”. But God has given us His Word to learn more about Him, and gain wisdom, knowledge, and understanding; also for us to grow, mature and use to fight the evil in this world with—“All Scripture is inspired by God and is profitable for teaching, for rebuking, for correcting, for training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be COMPLETE, equipped for every good work.” (2 Timothy 3:16-17). We ARE overcomers of evil when we have God on our side!!

God has also given us this Word so we can live out our PURPOSE here on Earth, and find out what God’s WILL is for our lives. He has SOVEREIGNLY made a plan for each one of us (Jeremiah 29:11); but it is up to US to find out what that plan is. The only way we’re going to find out, is if we CALL upon the Name of the Lord, and ASK, SEEK, and KNOCK (Matt.7:7).

Do NOT allow that spirit of DOUBT that got to Adam and Eve(Genesis 3:1), get to you! Satan is a LIAR, and the father of lies(Jonn 8:44)! LIVE OUT the Purpose that God Pre-destined for you! You are PRECIOUS in His sight (Isaiah 43:4)! Your life COUNTS to Him; learn to be a blessing to others, and give God all the honor and glory due His Name. Be blessed. ❤️✝️

Just in Case You Didn’t Know, I’m really NOT a Unicorn… or am I??

I mean, I AM a flesh and blood female; I’m not a robot either, and I like how more and more we have to “prove” ourselves on some sites so they know we’re real live human beings! But I’m starting to think that I’m invisible, or someone that some people (mainly guys!) think I was a “figment” of their imagination…🙄😒😔

My friend Terry is right; I am a 🦄Unicorn. I’m something that seemingly doesn’t exist to a guy. I mean, c’mon—can there 🙄REALLY be women out there that ARE good, and love God, and would be loving, romantic, AND respectful to their man??🤔🤨 (YES, I’m right here🥺!!!) Oh, and of course she has to be pretty, neat, somewhat organized; she should have a good job, or at least working towards one, or pursuing whatever goal or dream she has. She hopefully is a hard worker, honest, speaking the truth but with love, not hitting the man over the head and nagging him all the time😒; also thoughtful, kind, considerate. And forgiving—she’s GOT to be forgiving, because men even into their 40’s and 50’s still act like 12 year old boys at times🤪 (I’m not saying I never get like that🙄—I could SWEAR I heard a Voice in my spirit say to me one day when I was complaining about this and that—“52 going on 12”😳!). Did I mention she should have a good sense of humor?? 😆😉😏 She’ll tell you like it is, but knows when to be still and quiet as well. Check, check, and check.😉✅ Oh, and for the love of everything good, she CAN’T try to change the man😫😩!! That’s HUGE!! He KNOWS he needs to change—it’s on his mind constantly, but unless he HAS a good enough reason to, sometimes he just “gives up” and no longer cares.

She’s got to be the type of woman that leaves such an impression on him, that he DOES care enough to move forward in his life, make those changes, and MOVE ON, and GET that woman! If he has her already, then make her realize she’s WORTH it to him TO do whatever it takes to keep her (and yes, she should let HIM know as well, that he means that much to her!).

That type of woman is a RARE thing—a “RUBY” in the Lord’s eyes; precious in His sight, so of course, for the man that ends up with her, he’s going to finally feel like he won the lottery ten times over, but money could NEVER replace the LOVE she’ll have for him🥰—that in ITSELF, is worth the effort in pursuing such a woman. And ladies, that type of man is also WORTH WAITING FOR, hence me doing just that for the last two plus years! For a man to finally feel LOVED and RESPECTED, is all that he needs. He’ll lasso the moon🌕 for her just to let her know how much she means to him.❤️ With the love that blooms and grows between them, all those “changes” that needed to take place in BOTH of their lives (yes, ladies, we have things WE need to change about ourselves as well😉), little by little, it happens. They get closer to one another; are so comfortable in each other’s presence, and the trust that grows between them, it just “happens”—they start to “blend” and become ONE with another. He doesn’t want to do or say certain things that he knew wasn’t right in the first place; she realizes that there’s no need to nag, or “push buttons”—enough “buttons” have been pushed by others in their past lives. They want this to happen; they want this to work, and somehow, they always “knew” it would. LOVE continues to grow after a while, and before they know it, they realize that they were always “meant to be”. Their love🥰for one another means more to them than anything else—except God Himself. They realize that if it wasn’t for HIM, they wouldn’t have even met. He set this up for them. He knew how and when it would work out best for them. They may have messed up a few times prior, but that doesn’t even matter anymore. What matters now, is they finally got it RIGHT.❤️

That’s what THIS 🦄Unicorn wants to have happen to HER. That’s why I’m waiting on God to bring me “him”. He’s out there; I know he is. God has assured me, via several “God Wink” confirmations 💜🌈 that I am NOT waiting for nothing. BUT, it HAS to be in HIS timing, and in the way HE’S going to bring it about. No more rushing ahead or falling behind for me; let the Lord take care of it. I’ve done enough damage in my own life, and even though it wasn’t intentional, in the lives of others. I don’t mind WAITING, even though this is one of the HARDEST things I could have ever done in my life; not so much the WAITING or TRUSTING God part, but the LONLINESS😣😞💔part. THAT’S the “killer”; I’ve never been a solitary this long in my life, since I was 18. But, it had to be THIS way this time, in order for God to do what HE needs to do in ME, and in “him”. When He decides we’re both “ready enough”, it’ll be TIME. No more waiting after that; at least not for each other. A whole new experience, a whole new FAITH walk, a whole new LIFE and LOVE that we both wanted (and needed!🥰) so much.

So yea, this Unicorn🦄 girl will continue to wait for “him”. He’s definitely worth the wait, because he IS the “one” that God wanted me to have in the FIRST place, before I “got in the way” and made my own life choices. Oh, don’t get me wrong—blessings did come out of some of those relationships as well—I gained a daughter, and now a future son-in-law, a grandson, a friend instead of an enemy (that is, my ex-husband, the father of my daughter☺️), and also, a step-daughter and her family, and a step-son as well. I still consider them all “family” as they do me.🥰. Forgiveness reaps many benefits in this life, and I did “gain” things, even though some of those things weren’t part of God’s ultimate Plan for my life. But He knew I wanted to be a mother, and He answered that prayer, despite the circumstances and life choices at the time. What I gained out of it, is priceless.❤️💎 If God can allow such amazing things to happen in His PERMISSIBLE Will, imagine what He will do for me NOW, that I am finally “IN” His Perfect Will! The verse from Ephesians 3:20 pops into my mind right now—“Now to HIM Who is able to do above and beyond all that we ask or think according to the POWER that works IN us…” THAT is why I am willing to WAIT; not only because “that man” is the one I’ve wanted for so long, but because my Father CHOSE him and designed him especially for ME, and I for him. No one could ever fill God’s “shoes” in my life, nor the MAN He Pre-Destined and Ordained for me.🥰🙏🏼❤️✝️

The Harder and Longer the Trials, the more I have to Fix my Eyes on What is Unseen

First off, I want to apologize for not being on here for the past several days! I’m so sorry; Life got busy, and I actually “allowed” myself to go out a couple of times this weekend, to catch a breath and meet up with some family and musician friends. I didn’t want anyone to start thinking I was one of those bloggers that start a blog, and two or three entries later, give it up. No way—not when my “Season of Waiting” Journey is still in full swing! Nor was it because nothing has come my way as far as Divine intervention in my devotionals, or real life events. On the contrary; not only have I had my huge share of “God Winks” (oh my soul, He hooks me up with so many sometimes, I can’t remember to write them all down!), but as far as Divine intervention and what I like to call my “George Muëller” moments, I had a few of those too!

Last Tuesday (Mar. 19), I calmly spoke to the Lord about the worsening money situation; I did my taxes, and was waiting for them to come in, but honestly didn’t expect them until about a couple more weeks at least, from what I was told. My church said they were willing to help me out a bit, but had yet to do so. I knew it was already past the time for some of my bills, and I needed my car to get back and forth to school; gas and toll money was running down, and I was starting to run out of basic food items. I wasn’t going to go “hungry”, but certain daily things I started to run out of, so that was “on the list” of needs for the Lord to provide as well.

Just a little over two months ago, I was in this very scenario; my seasonal job ended up being just that—seasonal, when we were told that wasn’t going to happen, and we would be keeping our jobs at the end of the Christmas Season. So I had absolutely no money saved, because I didn’t even make enough TO save any money, much less pay most of my bills. My situation started to turn dire very quickly; that was before I got a temp job at the church/school to fill in as the custodian. I just happen to mention that I needed prayers for my particular situation online, and within 72 hours, the Lord had whispered into people’s ears, and moved them to help me out enough to pay much needed late bills, and also help me with food. For six weeks, things were starting to look a little better, but then as soon as that job started, it too, had ended quicker than I previously hoped it would. But I was happy for the individual who I was filling in for, for their life situatation did improve for them to come back to work. ☺️

So this was a “repeat” of what happened, and like I said, by last Tuesday, I was walking down that road of FAITH, looking for “open doors” to swing wide open, to get me out of the bind once again. Mind you, my school schedule for this semester doesn’t allow me the “freedom” to choose from an array of jobs; I’ve had to look for jobs with flexible hours, and because of my late nights at school four days out of the week, that makes matters worse for me. Thankfully, by Wednesday night, after getting a “nudge” to check my bank account (mind you I was getting ready for band practice, but that “still small voice” went off in my head, so I knew to respond very quickly to it!), I realized that my tax return showed up way before I expected it to, and that just got me out of a very serious jam! Praise God! Then, knowing my living situation was going to change within the next month or so, one of the ladies at church decided to open up her house to me, and I will be staying there for a while, for however long the Lord determines that has to be. I sure hope He opens a door for a job soon, though.😕That would be awesome! So knowing my future living arrangements are pretty much secured, and that prayer answered, the next thing the Lord took care of this Sunday, was some anonymous individual at church, happened to leave me $100 in my mail slot at the church! Even though my tax return was almost gone in a few days, but went to paying all the past due bills and such, I now was also able to purchase food and have enough money for gas and tolls for the next couple of weeks! Then, as if that wasn’t a blessing enough (and I’m not even mentioning all the “God Winks” I got in my devotionals that mentioned such things as Hebrews 11:6, AND the ones that my blog title is about—fixing my eyes on what is UNSEEN, rather than what is seen, and many more FAITH verses!), my friend comes to visit me just this past week, and blesses me with $30, because they won some money on a “scratch off” no less( I’m not condoning such practices, but it was kind of them to give me a part of what they won!)!! They know my ongoing situation, and wanted to help me out a bit, even though they themselves are also going through some tough times lately. So, within ONE WEEK, I’ve been given $130, and had my refund of over $1300 help me pay many things, to get me mostly up-to-date. Now granted, having a job would put me in a much better postion; the Lord Himself knows that. BUT, I can tell that HIS way of doing things has “stayed” off the job long enough to allow my FAITH walk to grow, and for other’s FAITH walks to also have a chance to grow as well in their lives. It would be much easier to just allow me to have a job; but then, none of us would have been S T R E T C H E D in our FAITH by the Lord—those that were willing a little over two months ago, to give me what totaled $1200, and bought me food back then; and now, learning even more to be PATIENT, the Lord has me blessed with others to help me as well, and in turn, they’ll get blessed by Him for being so faithful, and helping a sister in the Lord out in her ongoing time of need.

God’s FAITHFULNESS has been astounding in all of this; I cannot ever thank Him enough for what He’s been doing, especially since losing my full time job back in December, 2016 and putting me on this FAITH WALK Journey “in the DARK” with Him. I haven’t been just sitting around though; it’s been an ACTIVE “waiting period”, that’s for sure! I’m going to college full time; I’m singing and playing in my Worship band at church; going to leadership classes there now once a month; in another band as well, AND going to piano lessons at school, using the gifts, talents, skills and abilities the Lord has given me to put to use. I’m also “waiting” for “that man”—let’s not forget that🙄❤️, whenever the Lord finally brings “him” around. Until things change for the “better” more “permanently”, I will be on this FAITH walk for quite some time, and the longer I am on it, and as hard as it may get sometimes, I KNOW without a doubt, that the Lord has my back, and will take care of me with every STEP of FAITH I take, day by day. May you be blessed to have read this, and encouraged by it as well, that He can and will do the same for YOU, as you step out in FAITH each day, and let Him lead you by the hand. ❤️✝️

A Typical Day in the Life when You Walk by Faith…

Since this is only my second entry, and you really have no clue as to who I am and what I’m about, I will “fill you in” bit by bit of what’s been going on with me in the last two years; that way you’ll get a good idea of where I’m going with this. Since LIFE wanted to hit me between the eyes with some congestive chest cold-cough/dizziness these past few days, and all I wanted to do was sleep, on my school BREAK no less, I’ve fallen “behind” in what I planned to do with these precious few days off, and that’s why I haven’t written again until today.

This what I normally do–I wake up on most days, around 4:30 am; this week, being sick, there was NO CHANCE of that happening! I make my breakfast, get my coffee, sit down at the computer, and start to do my devotionals, and then comment on any number of them (I usually have about six or so I read when I have the time to get to them all)–the ones that “stand out” as far as what my FAITH walk is about. I’ll be commenting on them as well, since they are part of this whole “Journey”, and God has continually used them for instruction, correction, encouragement and growth. I’ll go ahead and just use one of them that stood out to me today, to give you a little “taste” of what I do with them, and how I let them apply to my life, and what I wrote in my journal about it:

“The BLB (Blue Letter Bible daily devotional) “hits the spot” today, with 2 Corinthians 4:16-18. That speaks of how even though our outward man perishes, our inner man is renewed day by day. We also have learned to not look at the things we can SEE, but those things which are NOT seen, for what IS seen is temporary, but the things NOT seen, are ETERNAL. So the daily life circumstances that get to us–namely my situation of once again, NOT having a job, still going to school full time, and having to depend on God for pretty much EVERYTHING, is been the most challenging thing I’ve ever experienced! BUT, He hasn’t let me down once! I’ve been taken cared of every single day; I’ve not gone without a meal, AND despite some “last minute” scenarios, so far my NEEDS (car being paid, car ins., gas, tolls, food, phone bill, etc.) are being met. I cannot say it’s been a really pleasant experience, because honestly, I’d rather not live this way, but it IS the way of FAITH, and it is what God has been doing in my life these past two plus years. It’s only got more intense since June of last year, when I noticed again that the jobs I should have been easily getting interviews for, didn’t happen. You could have heard crickets in the background! I knew God was up to something, and before I knew it, it wasn’t any longer a full-time job He was preparing me for; I was to apply for college FULL-TIME this past September, and by answered prayers, confirming over and over again that is exactly what He wanted me to do (financial aid came through via loans and grants for me to go!), here I am, back at school, a World Language major, picking up where I left off when I got my Associate’s degree. What the Lord is going to have me do with it, I’ve no idea. That’s for Him to know, and for me to find out…

Yea–it’s like that. Ask anyone in the military what their orders are, and they’ll tell you that they receive the immediate orders to do whatever it is they are carried out to do, and then they must WAIT upon further orders. That’s it; no one moves forward, until the next orders are given. THAT is how God works.”

It’s a TOTAL surrender of your life, every day, in every situation. Right now, I have no job again. I was filling in for someone at the church/school, since the seasonal retail job didn’t keep us around like they said they would back in December. So from late January, to about a week ago, I finally was getting a paycheck again. And now that’s over. When I went to the Lord in prayer about it a few days ago, He said, “YOU CAN’T WRITE A BOOK ABOUT WALKING IN THE DARK WITH FAITH, UNLESS YOU’RE LITERALLY DOING THAT (every day).” Makes sense, right? If you never heard about George Mueller, you should look him up. He lived a life of faith that is astounding. How that man depended on God for DAILY items–milk, bread, money, etc., and God delivered every time!! After I read a couple of his books, and also a diary of his, I was amazed at just how much of a similar pattern was happening in my life. That’s another reason why God “just so happened” to have me read those books of his; He was preparing me for a similar venture in my life–to trust God like never before, each and every day, every STEP of the way. Oh, by the way, the day the Holy Spirit spoke that word to my heart, the Days Of Praise devotional “just so happened” to have Phil. 4:19 as their verse for the day–“And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” Enough said. My Commander in Chief has spoken.He’s got my back; all I have to do is continue to TRUST Him, and take Him at His Word, even if I don’t “see” it all in front of me, or know what’s around the corner. He does. That’s good enough for me.

Moving Forward in My Faith Walk

If there’s one thing I hate doing, is something I’m not too savvy with, and like any other human spirit past, present or future, having to depend on something or someone else in order to get things done. Like this blog, for instance. I’ve been writing my Journey about my “Season of Waiting” for the past two plus years, because it was the Lord’s will for me to “WRITE IT DOWN”, so others can also benefit from it when I got around to writing a BOOK😳 about it. I was like, “Ok, Lord, a book, huh? Alrighty then.” Then after a year passed, and I thought by then the Lord would have “wrapped things up” with this Journey that He had me on, things just got deeper, tougher, way more spiritually intense than I’ve ever dealt with before, and that one book I thought I was journaling towards, now will be a “series” of books talking about my “Season of Waiting”.🙄 Oh, by the way, get used to the emojis—they’ve become part of what I write and express how I feel at times, and also are “markers” for certain events that have happened to me along the way. So here I am, now being “told” it would be a “good idea😳” to start blogging my journal posts NOW, before the book gets published, so others can see, read, hear and start to relate to what I’m doing, and how the Lord is working in, for, with, to, and through me, throughout this Journey. So come along with me, and I’ll start to fill you in on what’s been going on in the past couple of years, and work up till present day. If you follow me regularly, and read my blogs faithfully, you’ll start to “see” the patterns of how God works in my life, and others as well. He’s been “weaving” this beautiful Tapestry, and it’s amazing how many people are involved, and how I am being used as just one of the many “threads” in His Tapestry, to touch other’s lives while introducing them to Him, and/or bringing them to a closer, more intimate relationship with Him and His Son, Jesus Christ, my Savior, Lord, Redeemer, and Best Friend. I’m not going to lie, or “sugar-coat” anything; just going to lovingly “tell it like it is”, or how the Lord tells me like it is, and just relay the message while He works on my life, and through it. There may be really hard “sayings” (John 6:60), that some may not like to hear, or just that it’s hard to believe, but STICK WITH ME; as a Believer in Christ, and experiencing quite a bit of the Spiritual and Supernatural side of things over the course of my 50+ years on this Earth, I haven’t encountered as MUCH as I have, since handing EVERYTHING over to the Lord God, back in November, 2016. Since then, it’s been a whirlwind of events! No wonder He told me right from the beginning of my Journey, to “WRITE IT DOWN”(that’s not “yelling”, by the way; it’s how I write when the Lord aka the Holy Spirit speaks to me, so it stands out from what I say😉), so that’s what I’ve been doing, and now, you all get to be a part of this Journey with me. I’m DARING TO BELIEVE God can RENEW, RESTORE, REBUILD, and REDIRECT our lives, even if we messed up like I did. I will be using such things as what I’ve learn to call “God Winks”, thanks to certain authors explaining what they are, like Squire Rushnell, and Cheryl McKay. I’ll go into more of that in my next blog. Until then, if you are one for adventure, but also need a little “kick” to get things going, well then, you’re in the right place! So stay tuned, and let’s move forward in FAITH together, as God leads and guides me every single day, holding my hand in His, as I learn to WALK IN THE DARK WITH FAITH. Be blessed.