“Thus saith the LORD of hosts, Behold, evil shall go forth from nation to nation, and a great whirlwind shall be raised up from the coasts of the Earth.
And the slain of the LORD shall be at that day from one end of the Earth even unto the other end of the Earth…” Jeremiah 25:32-33a
There will come a Day when the LORD GOD Almighty, and His Son, the Lord Jesus Christ, will recompense for all the evil that is being done here and now—make no mistake about that.
“God is not a man that He should lie, nor the son of man that He should repent: Hath He said, and shall He not do it? Or hath He spoken, and shall He not make it good?” Numbers 23:19
God keeps every one of His promises—even to wipe out the existence of evil on the very planet He made for humanity, even if it means destroying those humans who commit to continue to do evil in His sight.
It will happen—make no mistake about it.
Stop thinking everything is going to go “back to normal”—there IS no “normal”—there never was. No sunshine, “positive vibes” and unicorns are going to stop what is coming. Face the music.
REPENT, if you need to; REJOICE, if you are a son or daughter of the King; REMEMBER who He has called you to be, if you have strayed away from Him. He loves you, and wants you to go to Him, but it must be now—do not keep putting it off. “For He saith, I have heard thee in a time accepted, and in the day of salvation have I helped you. Behold, NOW is a very acceptable time; behold, NOW is the day of salvation.” 2 Corinthians 6:2
Beloved, do not put it off any longer. The Day of the Lord WILL happen; be ready for it, and go to Him. He is waiting for YOU to “Look to Me, and be you saved, all the ends of the Earth: for I am God, and there is none else.” Isaiah 45:22.
“I will call on the LORD who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from my enemies.” 2 Samuel 22:4
“And you shall know the TRUTH, and the TRUTH shall SET YOU FREE” (John 8:32).
Let the Lord God set you free from all the lies, deceit, spells, incantations, curses, hatred, unforgiveness, resentment, bitterness, unrighteous anger, pride, fear, control issues, wrongful relationships, emotional and mental issues, addictions, false teachings, false gods, demonic/satanic activity, and any other vices one may have picked up in this life. 🙌✝️🕊🌈
Human spirits are messed up; the ONLY one who can set you free, and straight with the TRUTH, IS the One Who IS the WAY, the TRUTH, and the LIFE (Jn. 14:6) Who can LEAD you TO Eternal LIFE.✝️🌈
Are you ready to exchange all that spiritual, emotional, mental, physical garbage you have been carrying around for decades, and give it over to the Lord Jesus?❤️🙌
He’s waiting to hear from you. But do not keep putting it off; There is a Day coming, when He WILL return, and Judge the world with righteousness (Acts 17:31; Psalm 9:8; Hebrews 9:27; Revelation 20:11-15).
Go to Him now; the Eternal Triune Godhead loves you; He has never forsaken you. He already has come here and made a way for you to come to Him. But you need to make that next step, by “calling upon the Name of the Lord to be saved” as St. Paul told us in Romans 10:13.
The apostle Peter also reminded us that “it shall come to pass, that whoever calls upon the name of the Lord shall be saved”(Acts 2:21).
Take this opportunity now while you still have it, to get to know the Creator, Savior and Judge of the World, for He truly wants to have a loving relationship with you.
I’m sorry—I have put this off for TOO LONG. I have to “go off” on you all, for your own spiritual and eternal good.
🛡⚔️In case you wonder why I write such things that may sound so archaic, and “doom and gloom”—I AM a Servant of the Most High God, and my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I HAVE a spiritual obligation to my Master and King, to INFORM and WARN of such things.
📖If you do not like it, nor believe, you do not have a problem with me, nor insult me—you have then, a problem with the Most High, and Judge of all the Earth (Genesis 18:25; Ps. 75:7; 82:8; 2 Tim. 4:8; Hebrews 12:23), and call Him a LIAR. He hates that.
These demonically-controlled minded people obviously think we totally have forgotten what they said on TV last year; I for one, have NOT forgotten! For almost the first month or so of the pandemic, I watched Fox News’ daily updates with Dr. Tony Fauci, President Trump, and the rest of the crew that was with them. I REMEMBER Dr. Fauci saying 1) that the CHILDREN, since they have way better immune systems than us older adults, would NOT NEED a shot (unless they personally had certain medical issues) when one came available, and 2) the fact that masks, if needed, were for the INFECTED people, NOT for everyone to wear!
Once I saw the double talk going on a couple of months after that—as IF we all lost our minds (and I believe some really have at this point🙄😒) and became automoton sheep robots, and totally “forgot” all that he and the other so-called “health experts” over at the CDC and WHO said, I knew that something fishy was going on—this was no more for our health, benefit and safety—the lockdowns were being used to control us, and the masks and now the unlawful mandates are doing even more damage to this country and its people.
It was ALWAYS about FEAR and CONTROL, people—the TWO MAIN TACTICS OF the SATANIC agenda since the Garden of Eden…but most of you would just shake your heads and call me nuts.
At least I’m not bowing down to them, kissing their butts out of fear to keep a job, ruining my health, and losing my freedom!😠
✡️GOD my Father is my Protector, the LORD ✝️JESUS is my Savior and Deliverer from all this evil, and the HOLY 🕊SPIRIT is my daily Comforter (Jn. 14:26), guide ( Jn. 16:13) and “still small voice” (1 Kings 19:12) that continues to provide (Jehovah Jireh-Gen. 22:14) for my every need. I do NOT want part of a government that continues to literally inject POISON into our veins, whether through a shot or the “idiot box” via MSM.
😤😡I HATE DOUBLE TALK, and I HATE LIARS. I am to hate what God hates(Prov. 6:16-19), DETEST IT, and cling to that which He loves(Rom. 12:9), which is the TRUTH, for He IS the SPIRIT of Truth(Jn. 16:13), and the Way, the TRUTH and the LIFE(Jn. 14:6).
📖“To fear the Lord (reverently) is to HATE EVIL” (Prov. 8:13).
📖And you know what the Bible says about LIARS, Tony Fauci et al? Do you KNOW 🤨 where you all are going to end up? Let me show you:
📖“But the FEARFUL, and UNBELIEVING, and the ABOMINABLE, and MURDERERS (that includes all those who consented into making this man-made virus to begin with, and permitting it to be spread throughout the world; That = GENOCIDE😠), and WHOREMONGERS, and SORCERERS (that does not just mean dealing with witchcraft; it also means pharmakeia (Gk) = pharmacy=poisonous DRUGS), and idolaters, 💥and 💥ALL LIARS💥 —shall have their part in the lake which burneth with FIRE 🔥and BRIMSTONE: which is the SECOND DEATH” (Revelation 21:8).
🛡⚔️THIS, dear ones, is a WAR between GOOD and EVIL—it ALWAYS has been, and until the LORD GOD Almighty “pulls the plug” on this world and says “IT IS DONE”—YOU, whether you want to be or not, ARE smack dab in the middle of an ANCIENT SPIRITUAL WARFARE between the LORD GOD and His rebellious, evil, satanic fallen angels and ALL the humans that (🤦♀️smh) were fooled into thinking somehow, someday, SOME WAY, they were going to usurp the Lord God from His Throne, and take over Heaven and mankind.
They only managed to do damage to the latter of that last statement; they conveniently “forgot”(just like they want us to forget😉) that Lucifer/Satan GOT HIS BUTT KICKED OUT OF HEAVEN, and JESUS even said, “I saw Satan fall like lightning from Heaven” (Luke 10:18). That’s because JESUS EXISTED (Colossians 1:15-18) AS ONE WITH THE FATHER prior to coming to us as the INCARNATE WORD (see John 1:14)!!
FOLKS, WAKE your spiritual BUTTS UP, and SEE👀 what REALLY is going on!!! I normally deal with Spiritual Warfare on a regular basis—I KNOW (and so does every godly clergyman, Exorcist and Deliverance Worker out there) that this is TRUE!
Oh, and 🙄by the way, if Satan LOST the FIRST TIME he was kicked out of Heaven, 🤦♀️WHY would anyone have the slightest inclination to believe (this goes out to all the pagan/satan/other gods worshippers out there) that he and his satanic army (of fallen angels, Nephilim, Rephaim, and very spiritually lost humans) would be able to finally take God’s Throne over? Really? 🤨
The WAR for souls has been WON and BOUGHT by the 🩸BLOOD OF JESUS✝️CHRIST, the ONLY ✡️MESSIAH that this world needs, now more than ever. 🙏🏼🙌❤️✝️
🙏🏼HUMBLE YOURSELVES, and PRAY, and SEEK HIS FACE, and TURN FROM YOUR WICKED WAYS (2 Chronicles 7:14)—so that the LORD God WILL hear from Heaven, AND will FORGIVE your SINS (for there are MANY), and HEAL this LAND we call the UNITED 🇺🇸STATES of 🇺🇸AMERICA, before it IS too late, and we lose it ALL.🙏🏼📿🛡⚔️📖😭😞
HERE’S PHYSICAL 👇👇👇👇PROOF for the naysayers, and those who “just happened” to forget that Tony actually said this…🤨😒
If you are wondering whether you are among the CALLED, but not the CHOSEN, that is a good thing.
Most likely, then, you ARE among the CHOSEN. One who does not care either way would obviously not be in either camp.
But God knows who He has called, and who DESIRED to be among the CHOSEN.
Like the parable of the King who invited his guests to the wedding feast for his son(Mt. 22:2-13), so the Lord God bids us to come to Him now through His Son, Jesus Christ.
Many have been called to this wedding feast, which WILL take place (Revelation 19:9) in the near future; but unfortunately, most of Earth’s population either have disregarded (unbelief) or no longer believe (disbelief) that the Lord God exists or cares about them.
That is a boldface LIE from Satan and the demons themselves. The ones that promote that on this Earth, are the ones that follow the evil one, whether by choice or force. Either way, they will be bound “with hand and foot…cast into outer darkness; where there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth”(Mt. 22:13).
Do NOT “go with the flow” of the crowd of sheep over the cliff into that “outer darkness” that only leads to destruction. THINK for yourselves, beloved!! YOU are responsible for YOU at the End of Days!! YOU and only YOU will be standing in front of the Lord Jesus Christ, either at the Judgment Seat (2 Cor. 5:10) as a son/daughter of God, or at the White Throne (Rev. 20:11-15) along with all the other unbelievers.
If your name is NOT in that Book of life (Phil. 4:3; Rev. 3:5, 13:8; 17:8; 20: 12,15; 21:27; 22:19), you will have NO PART in the Eternal life to come. That will have been YOUR choice, not God’s to make, so do not dare to speak lies and say it is GOD who puts His creation in everlasting Hellfire—it is US humans who CHOOSE that for ourselves.
Want proof? Here it is, and I end with this; this is from Moses, who soon went Home to the Lord after speaking these words to the children of Israel, informing and warning them one last time:
“I call Heaven and Earth to record this day against you, [that] I have set before you LIFE and death, blessing and cursing: therefore CHOOSE LIFE, that both you and your seed may LIVE” (Deut.30:19).
365 times in the Bible, it tells us to “DO NOT FEAR”, so why do we still give into it? Why keep allowing the lies of the enemy to beat you down each and every day?
I’ll tell you why, beloved—because either we do not read God’s Word at all, or we do, and do not BELIEVE and receive the benefits from it.
We are to TAKE GOD AT HIS WORD—all of it, not just bits and pieces of it. You insult the Most High God if that is what you are doing. I know—I did it myself years ago, and I did not even realize I was doing it.
If you say you believe in God, in His Son Jesus, and the Holy Spirit—if you say that the Eternal Godhead is part of your life—part is not good enough.
SURRENDER ALL to Him! Seek and pray to have God’s perspective in this life; long for righteousness and truth, and to rid this world of the evil that is taking it on a downward spiral more each day.
Do NOT allow the enemy of our souls to continue to inject FEAR into your lives!! I stopped him from doing that long ago, and I felt like I could BREATHE again!!
I took back what the enemy stole from me—my eternal life, my joy, my confidence and strength in Christ, and knowing that I am the LORD’S, and NO ONE, especially a piece of filth demon or rebellious angel that got himself kicked out of the Throne Room of Heaven, was going to steal, kill or destroy anything from me ever again, in the Name of Jesus!!
LOVE is what conquers the evil, the HATRED, the prejudice, the anger, bitterness, resentment, and unforgiveness in this life!
Rid yourselves of those demonic fiery darts, along with FEAR, and you too, will take back YOUR life that the Lord God meant for you to have, and to live for Him, and to bless you and others with! You will feel like a thousand pounds came off of you, when you leave all that demonic junk at the foot of the Cross, and start to LIVE for Christ, LOVE one another, and DEFEAT the devil by speaking out THE LIVING Rhema WORD in your life!!
NO FEAR—kick it out!! No torments from it anymore—only FREEDOM to live the life WE ALL were meant to live, for the Eternal Godhead, for HIS glory, and for the salvation of souls!
We who profess to be believers in Christ, are to EXPOSE the lies, deceit, the theives, those who pretend to be good, but by their fruits they are truly known, murderers, those who plot and scheme evil things against us, etc.
However, do not take these situations, beloved, into your own hands—hand them over to the Lord God in prayer. Use the Living Rhema (spoken) Word of God to pray against such evil that obviously exists in this world. Prayers are going up to the Lord as how to deal with all this evil—so here once agai, is the ANSWER to those prayers and questions.
By the way, it is not that there is MORE evil these days—it has always been here, since the days of Cain killing Abel(as far as the first humans are concerned); it’s just been hidden from us, for those who perpetrate the evil wanted it kept secret. Now they do not even care anymore—what used to be done secretly in the darkness, is now being done out in the open for all to see.
YOUR job, beloved of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, is to wage spiritual warfare against such evil spirits, with the POWER and AUTHORITY the Lord God gave you to use.
He also will hold ALL of us children accountable for taking up arms in prayer against such evil, and yes, speaking OUT about it as well, so do it in obedience to the Lord as He wills it.
The Lord God Himself said, “Vengeance is Mine; I will repay them in DUE TIME, that their foot may slide: the Day of destruction is at hand, and the time makes haste to come” (Deut. 32:35).
Let Him deal with destroying them altogether, if they choose to remain in their sins. In Matthew 10:28 the Lord Jesus said, “And fear not them which are able to kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: rather fear HIM Who is able to destroy both soul AND body in Hell.”
Remember what the Lord Jesus said, “Pray for them which persecute you…”
Also, “Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven. Blessed are you, when men shall revile you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for My sake. Rejoice, and be exceedingly glad: for great is your reward in Heaven: for so persecuted they the Prophets which were before you” (Matt.5:44, 10-11).
Are we any better than the Prophets of old, or the saints that have gone before us, that have suffered so greatly, and have even been martyred for the Faith? Absolutely not. Then we should expect the same may happen to us, if it is the Lord’s will (see 2Tim. 3:12).
The Holy Spirit said to me some days ago, “It is not how you entered into the world that is important, neither is it how you exit, but WHAT YOU DID with your time while you were HERE.”
He said that to me because the evil spirits once in a while like to remind me that I was a product of an affair—that is how I came into this world; but that did not matter to the Lord—what mattered to HIM was calling and choosing ME unto HIMSELF (Isaiah 43:1), to serve Him.
So do not let those vile demonic beasts make you feel worthless—for GOD has PURPOSED YOU for HIMSELF and HE loved you enough to DIE for you, taking YOUR sins upon HIMSELF (1Cor. 15:3; Gal. 1:4; Rom. 4:25; 1Jn 2:2; 1Peter 2:24), so that you and I, and all others who accept Jesus as Messiah and King, would have a way back to the FATHER God, and most importantly, ETERNAL LIFE with HIM.
✨✨One last very important note:
Remember that it is NOT the person (human spirit) who you are fighting against, but the EVIL SPIRITS behind and within the person (again, look up 2Cor. 10:3-5). THIS is a SPIRITUAL WAR you are seeing play out (manifesting) in the PHYSICAL world.
If you have trouble believing this, I suggest you take it to prayer and ask the Holy Spirit to lead and guide you in further understanding and discernment of it all. My “job” is to INFORM and WARN on all that is going on, and to point out the Biblical truths of what we all see happening; the rest is up to you, beloved, whether or not you choose to believe, or resist the Lord God and His Word.
Sometimes, it is just best to allow the Scriptures to do all the “talking”, especially in these troubled times. We need reminders what God already has said in His Word what was to happen in these Last Days.
These are the verses that were put on my heart this morning, after a long overnight “prayer session”–
“I Jesus have sent mine angel to testify unto you these things in the churches.
Anochi shoresh David—I am the Root and Offspring of David, and the Bright and Morning Star.”—Rev. 22:16
“And Jesus answered them and said, Take heed no man deceive you.”
“and ye shall hear of wars and rumors of wars: see that ye be not trouble: for ALL these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet.”
“All these are the beginning of sorrows.”
—Matthew 24:4,6,8
“These things I have spoken unto you, that in ME you might have Peace. In the world (system) you shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; Ani nitzachti et ha olam —
I HAVE OVERCOME THE WORLD.”—Jn. 16:33
Praise God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit—the Eternal Godhead—Elohim, for HE has ALREADY redeemed us—all WE have to do, is seek Him, ACCEPT Him as Lord and Savior of our Lives, and ask for forgiveness of our sins. He will instruct you, direct you (Ps. 32:8; Jn. 16:13) and guide you from there.
Are you ready and willing?
Seek Him while He may still be found.—Is. 55:6-7🙏🏼✡️📖✝️
Our eyes and ears must be “tuned” to the Voice that speaks from Heaven. He has sent many a person to inform and warn in the past, and still does to this day; but one day, it will end, and the LORD will shake not only the Earth, but the Heavens. All the inhabitants of the Earth, be they for or against Him, shall know it is Him.
But all that HE has established, shall NOT be shaken or moved.
1 Samuel 2:9 states, “He will KEEP the feet of His saints, and the wicked shall be silent in darkness; for by strength shall no man prevail.”
Psalm 9:19 says, “ARISE, O LORD; let not man prevail: let the heathen be judged in Thy sight.”
Let us also be comforted and encouraged with the words of Jeremiah 1:19, as we see so much evil seemingly prevailing in this world today:
“And they shall fight against thee; but they shall not prevail against thee; for I AM with thee, saith the LORD, to deliver thee.”
Ut in Omnibus Glorificetur Dei
“So that in all things God may be glorified.”–St. Benedict
Look at this first picture—that is basically what I have been told today by the Spirit concerning where He’s got me right now—in a “holding pattern”. He says there’s still much to be done, and He’ll be using me and many others to get His Church reformed and revitalized, yet once more my life in the past two weeks has placed me in this state of “limbo” , and I’ve been left wondering if I did something wrong, or if not, why am I not moving forward? I know He hasn’t abandoned me, but sometimes the silence is so deafening. I wish He would just finally let me know what’s going on with my school—whether or not we’re going to be back there or just online; where I’m going to live next, and when “that man” will ever show up in my life. Plus, what about all these languages He’s thrown at me lately to learn—Biblical Greek, Hebrew and even Aramaic?! It’s bad enough I’m majoring in Latin in school right now for the past two years, but I am just now starting to put the pieces of that puzzle together as to “why” He was so insistent on me learning it. Sitting tight and “being still” is NOT my forté, but it is what is expected of me at the moment. But the Lord also puts me in these places of stillness, to speak to me and inform me of things from time to time. This is one of those times and subjects that has been impressed upon my heart that the Holy Spirit has been grieving about more and more lately.
I have the privilege every so often, to “see” with my spiritual eyes, the Lord Jesus “darkly” (1 Cor. 13:12). I had that “vision”, as some may call it, yesterday morning, as He stated to me once again, “TRUST ME”. I said to Him, “I say it every day, Lord, as I pray certain prayers, and as I see it on a picture of You as a constant reminder.” He is working on uniting the Church Body (every sect of Christianity that believes in the Trinity/Godhead), reminding us that we are to be as ONE. Too many splits have been made in the Church, and unfortunately, there is so much infighting within each sect, it is sad and disturbing to Him.
As far as Scriptural integrity goes, there will be more splits, because there are some that no longer adhere to what the word of God states; more within each church sect will fall away (2 Timothy 4:3-4). On a positive note, just within the past two months, I’ve come in contact with many brothers and sisters in the Catholic Church who said that the leaders in the last several years, have made it their task to make sure the laypeople are learning more Scripture in Church, and told to read and study God’s Word at home, and within home and prayer groups. I’ve been amazed at how much the Holy Spirit has really burst open the Church doors, and rained down His Holy Fire on them.
I’ve prayed for such a revival over 35 years ago while in the Church, but none would hear of it then; they thought me mad for saying I was “born again” as a Catholic. They said it was ok to read my Bible but it wasn’t really impressed upon us to do so. I asked too many questions that they no longer wanted to answer, and felt like they didn’t need to. Even though I was very involved in the Church, I was no longer made welcome back then, so I left. That is not what the Lord wanted to have happen to me, so He reassured me that it would not stay like that. He gave me a choice back then to either stay or leave; I could tell He wanted me to stay and “wait it out”, but the emotional damage that was done to me at the time left me scarred. I walked out and found another part of the Body of Christ to fellowship with, that not only adhered to Scripture, but had the teaching and moving of the Holy Spirit as well.
The Lord kept His promise to me—He said things would be better in time, although still needing some reform in certain areas. But allowing the Third Person of the Trinity to finally be made more known and taught about to His people, so that He could work within them, has been a major positive change I’ve been delighted to discover. To hear some Catholics say they are “born again and Spirit filled” now is remarkable. Their love for Jesus is not only a spoken thing, He is really present in their daily lives. The RCC has greatly improved in that area.
Yet, there are unfortunately some within each sect of the Body of Christ that ignored the Savior’s commandments, and have “turned from the truth” (2 Tim 4:4) altogether. Both Peter and Paul spoke of these things in their letters and we are the generation that is really seeing this come together. We MUST unite the brethren (John 17:21-23; 1 Corinthians 1:10(see pic); 12:12-13; 2 Corinthians 13:11; John 13:35; Philippians 2:2-3; Matthew 18:19-20; 23:8; Ephesians 1:10; 2:14; 4:1-6(see pic), 11-13, 16; Colossians 3:13-14; Psalm 133:1; 1 Peter 3:8; Romans 6:5; 12:4,16; Galatians 3:26,28).
We are not to concentrate on what divides us as far as the differences in how we praise and worship the Lord; He wants us to concentrate on what UNITES us, and going back to Acts and see how the brethren worked together as one back then. Why should it be any different today? To borrow loosely again from Dallas Jenkins(creator of The Chosen Series)’ quote—let the Lord Jesus deal with the feeding of the 5,000 and let US brothers and sisters in Him concentrate on bringing the loaves and fishes, work together as ONE BODY in Christ, and not bicker over the differences. The Lord is not deaf, dumb or blind to what needs to be changed and reformed in the Body; He works first with the individuals themselves, and then spreads it further within the Body. The Holy Spirit’s job IS to “convict the world concerning sin, righteousness and judgment”(John 16:8); He knows exactly who in the Body of Christ is following Him, and who isn’t.
The Holy Spirit is the SAME “still small voice”(1 Kings 19:12) that is in EVERY believer. For those who will humble themselves and “have ears to hear”(Mathew 11:15; Luke 8:8; Revelation 2:7), I say ALL of us need to go to the Father, and ask Him to point us in the direction HE wants us to go (Isaiah 55:6-7). Spend time with Jesus each and every day in prayer, conversation and studying His Word (Matthew 6:6; Romans 10:17; James 4:8). HEED the voice of the Holy Spirit who dwells within us—He is there to lead, guide, instruct, correct, chastise(let’s not forget those last two!!), comfort and encourage us (Psalm 143:10; Isaiah 30:21; Luke 12:11-12; John 14:26; 16:7-11, 13; Acts 1:8; 2:28; Romans 8:6,9,14,26-27; 1 Corinthians 2:13; 6:19; Galatians 5:25(see pic); Ephesians 1:13; 2 Peter 1:19-21). I do not put these verses in here to “show off” how much I know—I put them in here in the hope that you, the reader, will be a “Berean” and look them up for yourselves, and be edified and encouraged by His Word. I pray that we all would continue to hear His “still small voice” speaking to us every single day. Allow the Lord to teach us, transform us (Romans 12:2), no longer following the masses in their thoughts, values, and lack of common sense, and having the apparent void of God in their lives (Exodus 23:2; Eph. 4:17). Allow also for the Lord to “shatter the glass” in your life, if it is needed. Definition of that saying—“a moment of realization that changes your perception on something” (urbandictionary.com).
So let the Lord lead you, of course. My “glass” was shattered about a month ago now, about the RCC, and how much they have positively changed in the last 35 years since I left, because of what happened to me within my own parish. Reform in every church body needs to be done, and still there are items in the RCC that definitely need to be addressed, but again the Lord was letting me know that He was keeping His promise to me—to make sure that those who had “ears to hear” would hear, and follow Him regardless of what man may have put down as “doctrine”. The Spirit will continue to gather His people unto Himself, lovingly correct, unify and strengthen the Body of Christ. All we must do, is listen, heed His voice, adhere to His Word, allow Him to “shatter” any glass within our lives, and unite as ONE BODY in Christ, so that we all can “be in one accord” with Him, to bring others to Christ, and be a true example of LOVE between all the brethren, speaking in Spirit and Truth. Be blessed.
I’ve been married twice—the first time, it was because I had a child out of wedlock, and we tried to do the “right thing” by getting married about four years into our relationship. It wasn’t the best of times, and even though I loved the fact that I was part of his big family, we were so not meant for each other. But it was hard to break away because I hated to be alone.
But this second marriage—there was I thought, something different and better about it. After all, he was a “Christian” and we had a lot in common, especially both of us being musicians. We met at church through a friend, and even though I was told over and over again by the Spirit to “WAIT, Jeannette, PLEASE wait”, I ignored those pleas. I soon found myself not only thrilled to have someone in my life again, but within TWO WEEKS, he asked me to marry him, and I said YES! And within four months to the day we met, we were married.
As crazy as that sounds, it happened just like that. The pastor of our church tried to have us wait a while, at least six months or so, until we got to know each other better. But we wouldn’t hear of it; we were determined to be with each other, for we felt that we knew what we were doing. Besides, neither one of us wanted to be ALONE anymore. He was by himself for quite some time, and so was I. We figured we’d be alright because we were Christians, and God would be happy with our current choice, rather than who we had in our past.
Husband Number Two wasn’t married before like I was. Personality-wise, he was the complete OPPOSITE of Number One. That was one of the main reasons I was attracted to him. I realize now that when the Holy Spirit told me to “WAIT”, oh my soul—I should have LISTENED!! There were many issues with Husband Number Two that slowly but surely came out over the next several years. We didn’t have any children, and now I am grateful for that. But out of those thirteen years with him, the latter SIX were some of the loneliest times I had out of married life.
More and more it proved to be I made yet another wrong life choice. Four years before the marriage finally ended, he left me, and for the next three months of my life, it was horrific. As bad as our marriage was at that point, I didn’t want it to end. All the arguments and fights, all the nights one of us would be sleeping on the couch (most of the time it was me—he wasn’t giving up the bed), I couldn’t stand the fact that I just may be ALL ALONE AGAIN. That thought haunted me every single day.
We finally got back together after those three months, but the next four years was more of the same—living as roommates, hardly any intimate time, and even though we moved a couple of times hoping the new scenery and areas would help our marriage, the fact of the matter was, WE weren’t meant to be together either.
Once again, God proved Himself right—if He wasn’t the One ordaining the marriage to begin with, it wasn’t going to last. Once again, I failed. Once again, I found myself alone, at least for a short time, and then I fell into my bad habit again of having someone else to fill the “loneliness” gap for another two years, until finally, the Lord put the “brakes” on back in 2016. Through natural and supernatural means (He is the Revealer of secrets—see Daniel 2:27-28, 47)—when He’s ready to tell us those secrets, He “lifts the veil”, and puts the pieces of the puzzle together—at least enough of it for the time, so we can understand what He’s trying to tell us. For me, I was reminded about WHY the Spirit tried to me make me WAIT on Him back in 2000, and NOT be with anyone else. I needed that time for GROWTH in Him, and in myself. I never gave myself a break since I was 20 years old; I always either dated, or was involved in a long term relationship.
But what the Lord wanted me to do almost three years ago, was to me, very frightening. Being ALONE, by myself, having NO man to go out to dinner with, to be intimate with (but intimacy doesn’t just mean jumping into bed with each other, folks!)—after all, I AM a human; I do desire LOVE, and romance. I am a VERY passionate person, and to be without someone all this time has been sometimes excruciating!! But after what the Lord explained to me just WHO that person was—the “clues” He gave to me years ago, that I just ignored, and never gave another thought to—the Lord was TRYING TO HELP me not suffer any more with having the wrong guy in my life, and I basically blew Him off!
“What the HECK was I thinking?!”, I said to Him after He not only finally divulged the “mystery” of what He told me back in 2000, but He said that no matter what, I needed TIME to heal, and to start living the LIFE He had intended me to live. He didn’t just give me the gifts of music and writing to push aside and never use again; He wanted me not just to survive in this world, but to THRIVE, and FLOURISH. But—the “deal” was, it had to be on HIS terms (that means, according to HIS Word), and in HIS timing of it all.
One of the “terms” was, just what I am doing now—telling others of the very costly LIFE mistakes I made, and hoping that by telling others, especially the younger generation, they will HEED my warnings, and not repeat what I’ve done!
Hence the other part of the “terms” He set forth—to write them down not only in my Journal, and a Blog, but a BOOK. Actually, a series of books, so others can learn from my mistakes, and make better decisions based on the Bible, and having a PERSONAL relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ.
As far as the music portion goes, He led me to a church where I am currently on the Worship Team, and the Worship Leader and I are also in another band that sings and plays classic rock and roll, just for fun. That’s a “God Wink” story for another time.
Being married was always HIS plan for my life—choosing who I wanted, ended up being MY plan, not His. I have “reaped” what I’ve sown all those years ago. The loneliness I’ve felt came in waves these past few years on this “Season of Waiting” Journey; sometimes I feel like I’m going to crash and drown. But then the Lord “shows up”, and as if I can feel His arms around me, He lets me know that I am NOT ALONE; that I AM loved; that I AM worthy of “that man”’s love—when it’s TIME for it; that I have so many things to learn yet, and to also share with others, while I’m still a “solitary”. Until that time comes for God to let “him” into my life, I have to learn to appreciate this time, try and enjoy the Journey, and realize that even though I am by myself right now (and for the LONGEST period of my life, I may add!), I am NEVER alone, for He is always here with me.
Walking in the Dark with Faith 